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sweetbraid

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my dear dear friend, @astro died on 21 april, 2021. he took nembutal on 11 april, 2021 and was in a coma for ten days. i met him here and we became best friends. he was kind of a dick to some people, including me, at times, and even so, he was my best friend.
 
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Very sorry for your loss. Can you provide more details on the coma and how much N he took if you know?
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

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I’m so so sorry to hear that. It’s so hard to stay alive and lose people we love and care about. I know he’s in a better place, whether it’s afterlife or emptiness. Please, try to stay strong.
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WornOutLife

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I'm really sorry to hear this.
I've lost some friends too so, I know the pain you're going through.

Send you lots of hugs and love and eternal peace for your friend.

Matt
 
Wrennie

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sweetbraid said:
my dear dear friend, @astro died on 21 april, 2021. he took nembutal on 11 april, 2021 and was in a coma for ten days. i met him here and we became best friends. he was kind of a dick to some people, including me, at times, and even so, he was my best friend.
I am sorry for your loss. It hurts to lose people you've established a connection with, even if that connection was online rather than in-person. Give yourself time to grieve & prioritize your mental wellbeing above all else. Much love to you.

I am curious of the details relating to his 10 day coma however (as N is my method of choice) - but I completely understand & respect if you're not in the frame of mind to answer. Was he found too early and so his family instigated life saving measures?
 
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I’m so sorry, I’m sending you the biggest hug, I hope your friend is where he wants to be right now, I hope he is free❤️❤️❤️ I love you both.
 
sweetbraid

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Wrennie said:
I am sorry for your loss. It hurts to lose people you've established a connection with, even if that connection was online rather than in-person. Give yourself time to grieve & prioritize your mental wellbeing above all else. Much love to you.

I am curious of the details relating to his 10 day coma however (as N is my method of choice) - but I completely understand & respect if you're not in the frame of mind to answer. Was he found too early and so his family instigated life saving measures?

boc said:
Very sorry for your loss. Can you provide more details on the coma and how much N he took if you know?

i dont know much about the coma. i know he had three bottles of N which he got from the seller in mexicod, i dont know any more of the measurements of it than that. from what his dad and brother told me, he took it, ran into his brother's room and said he'd drank something lethal and to call an ambulance and then fell unconscious. from what i can piece together, he was actually dead, then was revived by paramedics and put on life support as he was in a coma. he didnt re-awaken from the coma in any way, and my best guess is that he was dead from when he took the N and the only thing 'alive' about him after that was that there were machines breathing for him etc.
 
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sweetbraid said:
i dont know much about the coma. i know he had three bottles of N which he got from the seller in mexicod, i dont know any more of the measurements of it than that. from what his dad and brother told me, he took it, ran into his brother's room and said he'd drank something lethal and to call an ambulance and then fell unconscious. from what i can piece together, he was actually dead, then was revived by paramedics and put on life support as he was in a coma. he didnt re-awaken from the coma in any way, and my best guess is that he was dead from when he took the N and the only thing 'alive' about him after that was that there were machines breathing for him etc.
Thank you for the wealth of information you provided during this truly difficult time. I guess unlike SN, N truly is a one-way ticket to the grave… where there’s no turning back once it’s
ingested.
 
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FuneralCry

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I hope he is at peace now. It is always hard when we lose someone but at least they are free from any suffering this world gave them.
 
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Wrennie said:
Thank you for the wealth of information you provided during this truly difficult time. I guess unlike SN, N truly is a one-way ticket to the grave… where there’s no turning back once it’s
ingested.

It would appear he changed his mind in the last moments.. Perhaps SI kicking in
 
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xrafinha said:
It would appear he changed his mind in the last moments.. Perhaps SI kicking in
it appears so.

question is "was his change of mind because of any pain after ingesting N or SI kicking in ?"
 
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xrafinha

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Wrennie said:
Praise be the Lord for that. He should consider another method - jumping is too horrendous to risk surviving.

I didn't get it.. Wasn't N his method?
 
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Bullit said:
Its sad. I'm looked at some of his posts,and,in one he says he really wants to live,but can't live the life he wants so he is ctb.
I've readed everyone of his post's, as his history is similar to mine.

He was only 17 when stroke by desiese that took his will to live. Apparently he was part of a good family that had means to provide for him and getting him an education. He appeared to be a smart kid.

He had a bright future ahead of him and he missed out on everything. I know that feeling exacly. It's very, very, very painful. Everyday is the same, just thinking about what could have been... it's torture.

His history saddens me, I hope he fould the peace he was looking for.
 
sweetbraid

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Wrennie said:
Wait, this individual already had Nembutal?
yes, he died as a result of taking it.
 
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xrafinha said:
I didn't get it.. Wasn't N his method?
I mixed up this thread with another similar one. My bad.
sweetbraid said:
yes, he died as a result of taking it.
Sorry, mixed up this thread with a separate one.

I have too many tabs open.
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

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He was such a sweet person. I wondered where he had gone. He will be missed by many, for he was a very kind, understanding, and compassionate individual. Much love to you, as I understand how crushing it is to lose someone you're close to, even if that outcome was what they yearned for all this time. Did you two get to meet in real life?
 
sweetbraid

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KuriGohan&Kamehameha said:
He was such a sweet person. I wondered where he had gone. He will be missed by many, for he was a very kind, understanding, and compassionate individual. Much love to you, as I understand how crushing it is to lose someone you're close to, even if that outcome was what they yearned for all this time. Did you two get to meet in real life?
he really wasnt that sweet or kind or understanding or compassionate. he was like really shitty at times to people who cared really deeply for and about him. he was kind at times, i wouldnt say he was understanding or compassionate though. he tried, sort of, but not because he wanted to most of the time. he didnt get a chance to learn how to let himself be those things. i appreciate you saying that though, i guess. no, we didnt. he was meant to come visit me where i live this june july or august.
 
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I think what makes it even sadder, at least for me, is that his user title says "recovery gang."
 
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