dumbbrain

dumbbrain

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Nov 8, 2021
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The only thing I enjoy these days is the feeling of sleepiness. It's the only time my mind is not bouncing around and thus I do not feel the pain. I take sleeping pills during the day -even after just waking up - so that I can constantly feel tired. If I am not tired I am thinking. And if I am thinking I suffer.
 
Rustysoupcan

Rustysoupcan

I'm sensitive
May 2, 2020
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I feel you. Im not addicted to them (yet) but I take them every night even though I don't NEED to. I just can't lay in bed and think, I need to just fall asleep instantly
 
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mk01

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Nov 18, 2021
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I have to take them to fall asleep every night, every so often there’sa night where they won’t work. I’ll get so incredibly irritated all night having to stay up, alone with my thoughts.
 
TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

Inthe kingdom ofthe blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
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gee. be careful yeah:: I used to live on rivotril (they're stabilizers but used them to help me sleep). Was on a bunch of others that I used to take like vitamins (often with my morning coffee) I was using street drugs so (how wierd is this gonna sound::) they made me feel contained (i hate that wired anxious creepy feeling way more than tiredness!)
Its just at some point you gonna have go regulate, or cycle off before they lose efficacy :: no judgements here (been reading from the Book of Nods for 30fekking years!) 'Self-Control' to me is a dirty word...
But as (karmic) payoff i live a life of between 4 and 6 hours sleep a night if I'm lucky. Insomnia is akin to madness, my exhausted mind goes venturing into places that are truly dark and dangerous.... take care
 
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The only thing I enjoy these days is the feeling of sleepiness. It's the only time my mind is not bouncing around and thus I do not feel the pain. I take sleeping pills during the day -even after just waking up - so that I can constantly feel tired. If I am not tired I am thinking. And if I am thinking I suffer.
I can understand that.

Is it an addiction to the sleeping pills, or an addiction to feeling tired itself so you can “escape” via “rest”?

It’s difficult to sleep when we think in circles.
 
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dumbbrain

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I can understand that.

Is it an addiction to the sleeping pills, or an addiction to feeling tired itself so you can “escape” via “rest”?

It’s difficult to sleep when we think in circles.
Yes an addiction to feeling tired is probably more accurate, your right. Being tired in a way makes me more tunnel visioned (about relaxing) and makes it easier to block out all the other noise.
 
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Pharmaruined

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The only thing I enjoy these days is the feeling of sleepiness. It's the only time my mind is not bouncing around and thus I do not feel the pain. I take sleeping pills during the day -even after just waking up - so that I can constantly feel tired. If I am not tired I am thinking. And if I am thinking I suffer.
There's a device called ces unit.. it send impulses to the ol braino and many many users report the best sleep ever.. also have to work on shutting off your brain and all the self talk noise..

Transcendental meditation works wonders.. good luck!
 
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There's a device called ces unit.. it send impulses to the ol braino and many many users report the best sleep ever.. also have to work on shutting off your brain and all the self talk noise..

Transcendental meditation works wonders.. good luck!
Agreed. TM is awesome... and setup a routine before you go to bed, so you subconsciously tell your body and mind you're slowing down.
I'm a white noise junky... and listen to David Sylvian instrumentals or trance electronica...
(beware :: 'Sounds of the Humpback Whale' cd brought about acid trip horror nightmares!! They are definately the work of the devil and are demonic entities awaiting world domination...)
...and when I'm desperate count backwards from 5000. They all work. Wierdly enough, so does praying.
Let go and let God.
(☆ as my inbox pm fills with wtf's from my atheist friends!!)
Its easy to see if you're addicted. Stop > if the wheels come off, you obsess about taking again / withdrawal / sleeplessness / anxiety / wanting to gulp a mouthful of yr pretties... then yeah, yr hooked.
so does whisky, but maybe thats another conversation!!
Luck and lullabies...
 
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For me, it's either sleeping pills or no sleep at all. Easy choice.
If only I had a lifetime of supply of benzos, I would sleep a happy man.
 
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Nov 6, 2021
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Can't sleep without it hate lying in bed letting my thoughts race thru my head. Just frustrating and I can't function at work if I don't sleep. Anxiety gets worse if I don't sleep so I have no choice.
 
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Agreed. TM is awesome... and setup a routine before you go to bed, so you subconsciously tell your body and mind you're slowing down.
I'm a white noise junky... and listen to David Sylvian instrumentals or trance electronica...
(beware :: 'Sounds of the Humpback Whale' cd brought about acid trip horror nightmares!! They are definately the work of the devil and are demonic entities awaiting world domination...)
...and when I'm desperate count backwards from 5000. They all work. Wierdly enough, so does praying.
Let go and let God.
(☆ as my inbox pm fills with wtf's from my atheist friends!!)
Its easy to see if you're addicted. Stop > if the wheels come off, you obsess about taking again / withdrawal / sleeplessness / anxiety / wanting to gulp a mouthful of yr pretties... then yeah, yr hooked.
so does whisky, but maybe thats another conversation!!
Luck and lullabies...
Always loved David Sylvian, especially Japan as a group, Gentlemen take Polaroids one of my go to albums. Cocteau Twins put me in the same place too
 
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