- Jul 15, 2018
Hello all, I think I'm contemplating going through it today with a China white exit . I have a plug that claims the stuff isn't for rookies, 1 gram to buy should do the job but.... My sister is living with me with her son. I make the most money and it isn't a whole lot but it's more than enough as we own the home. Our father just passed, I'm extremely hurt as I know she is. She is in school right now and I'm not sure if she works (don't ask me how) I love my sister though and my nephew but I'm in too much pain. I've been in pain for over half my life and it only gets worse I'm 21, had a mood disorder since the age of 10. I'm a full time office clerk it's the job I really wanted for years but it still didn't relieve the pain. My mother isn't involved in our lives like that (especially mine) so I don't know if my sister would be assisted after I go. I just want to die in dignity and have them be taking care of but I don't think I can do it anymore. Am I being selfish , or can I end this today?