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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,353
Yes, I’m going to be alone with my cat basically. Last Christmas was slightly better I did lsd lol! This one might just really blow. I really liked this guy but I told him I have herpes so that ended yesterday. It’s just gonna be a brutal one this year I think. I hope the hormone replacement therapy at least helps me cope slightly better.
 
SinisterKid

SinisterKid

Visionary
Jun 1, 2019
2,114
I will be joining those self medicating with alcohol. On my own until mid afternoon, then the real fun starts and the drink will flow and by 10pm I should be about ready to sleep for 8 hours solid. With wine, champagne, beer and gin, I think the hangover is not going to be a pleasant one, but who cares.
 
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rosetrapped

rosetrapped

Member
Dec 17, 2019
10
I'm forced to face my large extended family and socialise for hours on different days. I have depression and anxiety and honestly every year I dread Christmas. I cry a lot and it's really embarrassing in front of these people who barely know me. I'm awkward and bad at conversation anyway and all I want to do is go back to bed and be alone. I just end up hating myself even more after.
My mum doesn't understand and she gets upset if I don't 'make an effort'. I don't want her to do anything drastic either like taking my laptop/ forcing me to a doctor so I have to just go along with it. I also grieve badly for my dad at xmas(he killed himself), you just notice the lack of someone so much more, and my family usually gets out old home videos of him too which I hate :( I just want to end it now but I haven't sorted out the method yet and I can't make it a memory for my family every Christmas, so I have to wait and endure this shit.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,562
Yes, I’m going to be alone with my cat basically. Last Christmas was slightly better I did lsd lol! This one might just really blow. I really liked this guy but I told him I have herpes so that ended yesterday. It’s just gonna be a brutal one this year I think. I hope the hormone replacement therapy at least helps me cope slightly better.
Hello fellow cat lover! You will be joining us here.

Good going about being open about your herpes. You were honest. You didn’t have to be, and if he really cared, it wouldn’t matter.

See you on the holiday thread. ;)
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,550
This will be my first Christmas completely alone. My best friend moved away. My family and friends are thousands of miles away. My cat is dead. I feel like being dead...
I'm not really looking forward to it.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,562
This will be my first Christmas completely alone. My best friend moved away. My family and friends are thousands of miles away. My cat is dead. I feel like being dead...
I'm not really looking forward to it.
Cough and what are we? Chopped liver? Wait. Wrong holiday! Anyway, see you on the forum on out holiday thread. ;)
I will be joining those self medicating with alcohol. On my own until mid afternoon, then the real fun starts and the drink will flow and by 10pm I should be about ready to sleep for 8 hours solid. With wine, champagne, beer and gin, I think the hangover is not going to be a pleasant one, but who cares.
You will be here with me. :wink:
 
k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,550
Cough and what are we? Chopped liver? Wait. Wrong holiday! Anyway, see you on the forum on out holiday thread. ;)
LOL interrupting my pity party with your logic!
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,562
LOL interrupting my pity party with your logic!
No pitty parties and Stan would be glad some of his logic wore off on me. I am the emotional one.

So..... what are you bringing to the party?
 
k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,550
I heard desserts were taken, but that's my specialty.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Yea I really dread it. think I'll just be drowning myself in Xanax this Xmas...
 
enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
i’m definitely gonna get nice and drunk on christmas after i drive a few states down to visit family. i have to slap on a smile for at least three days while i’m there. this is going to be the first christmas since my ex dumped me and i hate how festive and cheerful everyone is. i’m completely miserable.
 
TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
367
I'll try to excuse myself and sleep it in. There's no joy in it for me anymore, the only good thing is the turkey.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

I want to sleep for an eternity
Sep 24, 2020
6,286
I cannot stand christmas. It is the most depressing time of year for me. Also everything associated with it annoys and irritates me. It was horrible last year. Overall, I am just so tired of living and all I want is to be free from this existence and to be at peace.
 
Morte

Morte

Specialist
Jul 31, 2020
356
I'm going to drink alcohol until it slowly disappears and I forget who I am
 
Green Destiny

Green Destiny

Life isn't worth the trouble.
Nov 16, 2019
624
Don't like it anymore. Hate the crowds of people and the overused christmas music.
 
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coal-light

Member
Nov 4, 2021
10
I'm not dreading christmas but I have a trip planned and I want nothing other than to be alone. Kind of regretting it.
 
Shadowplay

Shadowplay

Average life non-enjoyer
Sep 11, 2021
746
If I'm lucky it will be my last --- wooh00!!!
 
grungeCat

grungeCat

Awkward & weird
Jul 5, 2020
1,072
Yes, this year christmas will probably be shitter than ever before. This song helps me to cope

 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Real Monster
Sep 26, 2021
1,277
I hope I'll manage to CTB tomorrow or next few days cause otherwise the next Christmas+next new year eve(my fav holiday) will be muuuch more shitty than the ones llast year, even more lonely than before.
 
stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,663
I definitely am! I have been drinking alot this month to cope, to escape and I know I will be worse Christmas day. I just wish I never woke up. Ugh
Absolutely. Commercial holiday, illusions of perfect people and perfect families and happiness, in crumbling relationships and crumbling households that continue on the perfection parade.
 

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