Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
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until you start remembering details? I never really think about it in depth so it never seems to hit me hard. I have effects from it like anxiety that incapacitate me and make life hard, but it’s mostly the after effects that I’m only aware of.
 
Smilla

Smilla

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Apr 30, 2018
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No, I am not unfazed, quite the opposite now that I’ve seen the truth for what it is: sad, unlucky, messy, dirty, and ugly. Adult betrayals didn’t help either but perhaps they wouldn’t have happened had my childhood been normal.
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
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I think is not as hard as a trauma but my parents used to hit me a lot during my childhood and emotionally abusing me. Others persons seems to react being afraid of them or getting afraid of everything in general but in me it had the opposite reaction: each year I was more violent and reacted harder than the last. In a certain moment they already weren't so valiant and they stopped a bit, but not very much. They continue being abusive and menacing them seems to be the only solution.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

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Apr 30, 2018
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I think is not as hard as a trauma but my parents used to hit me a lot during my childhood and emotionally abusing me. Others persons seems to react being afraid of them or getting afraid of everything in general but in me it had the opposite reaction: each year I was more violent and reacted harder than the last. In a certain moment they already weren't so valiant and they stopped a bit, but not very much. They continue being abusive and menacing them seems to be the only solution.

In my book that is trauma—we tend to think of trauma as only being related to war or severe unrelenting physical abuse of the sadistic kind but it sounds like what your parents did to you was traumatic.
 
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