Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
I feel like each morning that I wake up I feel worse and worse. My mind is even more broken down by depression and anxiety, I’m less able to concentrate or memorize things, less able to interact with others, less ability to prepare food eat maintain self, no ability to have any enjoyment at all. I’m determined to ctb so everything else seems secondary. The pain of depression makes forcing myself through a day near impossible. Hoping that I can reach a level of enlightenment so that I can calmly exit this life. This site has been quite helpful to me and I appreciate having people that I can relate to, communicate with and who can understand my situation - I surely do not have that irl. Thank you everyone.
 
Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
189
I feel similar due to depression and anxiety. My memory feels shot, difficulty concentrating, lack of motivation and anhedonia makes trying to enjoy things incredibly difficult. Various medications over the years I feel have made it worse. I have almost everything I need to ctb, hopefully I'll be gone before the new year.

Thank you as well. I also wish you peace when you decide to exit.
 
deathoverlife

deathoverlife

life is fleeting.....
Oct 8, 2018
197
I feel like each morning that I wake up I feel worse and worse. My mind is even more broken down by depression and anxiety, I’m less able to concentrate or memorize things, less able to interact with others, less ability to prepare food eat maintain self, no ability to have any enjoyment at all. I’m determined to ctb so everything else seems secondary. The pain of depression makes forcing myself through a day near impossible. Hoping that I can reach a level of enlightenment so that I can calmly exit this life. This site has been quite helpful to me and I appreciate having people that I can relate to, communicate with and who can understand my situation - I surely do not have that irl. Thank you everyone.
This is hoe exactly i was till yesterday..am at peace now..am prepared well to cbt..every thing set..trial run is done..waiting for the right time...will do it the week..
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,042
Life has become a pure endurance test for me. It's not that I simply feel worse year after year, it's that every year my life takes a tumble even from a very objective standpoint. Just when I think I've hit the bottom, the rug is pulled out from underneath me and I'm subjected to a whole new level of shittiness, by things that are more often than not completely outside of my control. I'm beyond sick of it.
 
Dog Food

Dog Food

POS
Mar 27, 2018
143
Everyday I have less memory left. Everyday i get more afraid to go outside.
Everyday I get skinnier. I now have a bmi of 10.8.
Everyday I suffer more. I don't understand why people think I should keep on living.
 
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