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Red star

Red star

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Sep 15, 2018
208
Hey so I might delete this, not sure I want to put myself out there.

If anyone else has no one to talk to and is alone I relate with you. I usto be okay with not having any friends or talking to people but it's starting to get to me. In real life I'm so guarded no one can get through, its been this way since before my last attempt. It's not time for my next ctb yet. Anyways for those that have no one and are stuck here awhile I'm here if you need.
 
Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Super duper enlightened
Sep 9, 2018
1,708
I get it brother. It's like you want people but don't at the same time. I always knew this was why I wouldn't be able to have meaningful friendships - because they had to be on my own terms what with me being as weird and fragile as I am. Always happy to chat to anyone on here who needs someone to talk to.
 
throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,445
I get it brother. It's like you want people but don't at the same time. I always knew this was why I wouldn't be able to have meaningful friendships - because they had to be on my own terms what with me being as weird and fragile as I am. Always happy to chat to anyone on here who needs someone to talk to.

Hey, I can relate to that. I have trouble communicating with people.Even here my social anxiety has its way.
 
Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
it's weird: i complain about being alone and yet i make little effort to bridge out of that loneliness. i'm just not sure how to connect, or if that's even possible for me at this point : /
 
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Susannah

Susannah

Arcanist
Jul 2, 2018
481
I like to talk/chat. I've been to my surgent today for new xrays. Pictures doesn't look good, and my bionic arm is killing me. I wish i had someone here, hate being alone now.
 
Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
I like to talk/chat. I've been to my surgent today for new xrays. Pictures doesn't look good, and my bionic arm is killing me. I wish i had someone here, hate being alone now.

A bionic arm sounds really cool to me. why is it killing you, is it painful?
 
Susannah

Susannah

Arcanist
Jul 2, 2018
481
A bionic arm sounds really cool to me. why is it killing you, is it painful?
I know it sounds cool, looks really cool too, but it's painful/ phantom limb pain (?). Both my elbows crushed in the mtb accident, but my dominant arm wasn't repairable. I also have severe nerve injuries in the same arm (can't see them though). But yeah, looks awesome!!
 
Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
woah, i'm sorry to hear that. i honestly couldn't begin to imagine.
i did see a documentary about phantom limb stuff once and it's amazing how the brain becomes so wired to believe that something's there, even when it's gone. whenever you lose something or maybe someone in your life that you had kinda grown into there's just this endless state of shock with the fact that it's not there and life's just not the same.