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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
Anyone else caught off guard by how fucked up life can get?

The past few years have taken such a toll on my well being that at times I cannot believe the situation that I’m in. i’m suffering to the point that I need to put myself out of my misery. I’ve always struggled with mental health issues and its treatments/ medications. A series of hellish events just absolutely destroyed me and I know I can’t continue.

Just amazed how bad things are. Knowing that I will be finished with this world is the only thing that give me peace of mind.
 
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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
499
Yep, i was sat with some other patients and some were shouting, screaming, crying, one just stood and pissed her pants. Staff where trying to calm things down. I had to leave the room and go ask for lorazapam because its literally just hit me that my section 2 is being extended untill the hospital can apply to the court for me to be placed on a section 3. I could be stuck in this place for potentially another 6.5 months, ive been here 5 weeks already. Im like fuck what am i gonna do, cant cope
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,381
Anyone else caught off guard by how fucked up life can get?

The past few years have taken such a toll on my well being that at times I cannot believe the situation that I’m in. i’m suffering to the point that I need to put myself out of my misery. I’ve always struggled with mental health issues and its treatments/ medications. A series of hellish events just absolutely destroyed me and I know I can’t continue.

Just amazed how bad things are. Knowing that I will be finished with this world is the only thing that give me peace of mind.
Yeah I am. It shouldn't ever have been allowed to get to this point, it's a disgrace that it was. Best not to think about it though because it just makes me angry and I can't just off myself now. I have to do it though, it's torture. I can't believe it came to this
 
SamK

SamK

Cloud Surfing
Aug 21, 2018
280
Yep
I used to complain years ago that life was hell. Shortly after, a chain reaction of events, losses, more losses, more losses, more pain, showed me what it was really like to have a life full of hell. I wish i could go back and take back those words, and I wish I had appreciated everything, and everyone I had then.
I still cry and feel angry at how bad life has gotten, not just for me but others around me, like on here.
it never fails to shock me. I can't even say i'm numb anymore. My eyes are wide opened to reality, and there's no going back.
 
AveryConure

AveryConure

Some idiot
May 11, 2018
438
If there's one positive thing to think about the world could get fucked in 22 years and we'd probably all ctb'd by that point anyways
 
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Lizzie S.

Lizzie S.

Experienced
Sep 2, 2018
258
Yes, my life and health are completely fucked it's crazy to me how much suffering someone can go through and still be alive

If there's one positive thing to think about the world could get fucked in 22 years and we'd probably all ctb'd by that point anyways

Why in 22 years specifically?
 
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AveryConure

AveryConure

Some idiot
May 11, 2018
438
Cause of global warming. Apparently we only have 12 years to reverse it but knowing how dumb people are about this shit we're probably going to end up kissing our butts goodbye in 22 years.
 
Duqu

Duqu

Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!
Aug 27, 2018
450
I'm less shocked by how fucked up MY life has gotten (that's been a lasting battle for most of my life), but how fucked up the WORLD is right now. It's absolutely terrifying.
 
Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
I absolutely loathe what I've become and I am a void after a pharma nightmare and a long series of poor choices, listening to the wrong person and ending up alone and isolated. I spend way too much time wanting to die and the only thing that keeps me not doing it is saying "well, it'd be rude to die today...because.....(fill in the blank) and I'm running out of blanks.
 
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Deleted member 1768

Enlightened
Aug 15, 2018
1,108
Anyone else caught off guard by how fucked up life can get?

The past few years have taken such a toll on my well being that at times I cannot believe the situation that I’m in. i’m suffering to the point that I need to put myself out of my misery. I’ve always struggled with mental health issues and its treatments/ medications. A series of hellish events just absolutely destroyed me and I know I can’t continue.

Just amazed how bad things are. Knowing that I will be finished with this world is the only thing that give me peace of mind.
No. No surprise.
 
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