- Jun 18, 2018
Dying a natural death seems awful after having delved into the topic of suicide for months. The lack of control in a natural death and the randomness of it is unnerving.
Yes. The thought of natural death is horrible to me. Even if you're suicidal, natural death can catch you off guard. That's what makes it scary to me but then suicide itself is scary too. However suicide is controllable so that's a plus. And here I'm deciding which one is the least horrible wow my life is great.
I don't regard my state of mind as some pessimistic view of the world, I regard it as the world itself. Evolution can not avoid bringing intelligent life to one conclusion and that one conclusion above all else is futility.
Cormac McCarthy - Sunset Limited