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Life sucks

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2018
1,923
Hi,
Does anyone remembers the toxic incidents and abuse others done to you like it happened yesterday? I still remember many things through my whole life even if its 10+ years, I can remember clearly the abuse and how shitty other humans are.

I still remembers clearly the corporate abuse and shit that happened years ago and it looks like it happened yesterday.

Its strange how people say one should forget because it happened long time ago, and be astonished when I tell them I clearly remember the abuse and hate the offenders to this day.

Toxic pieces of shit leave their bruises on us. I wish I was never existed with these creatures.
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,380
Me. I remember these things like they were yesterday. My theory on why is because we think about it every day which keeps it so fresh in our minds. When we think back it feels like yesterday because it was when we last thought about it. Other memories of lesser importance fade and if my memory 's jogged about something long forgotten then I really feel the passage of time even if it's more recent than what feels like yesterday. I'm sorry others did you wrong, in my case it's me whose at fault
 
Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,492
I think it depends on how we are feeling. If we're feeling good then won't think of toxic situations, I have those feelings now and also regrets on the past which got me in this situation. Holy crap are things ever bad right now, I'm barely hanging on...
 
Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
It's hard to forget when people isolate and gaslight you then remind you how screwed up you are. It's really hard to forget when they say its in God's hands now because I can't fix you, or whatever.
Feels just like it happened yesterday.
 
Circles

Circles

There's a difference between existing and living.
Sep 3, 2018
1,728
I smell blood way too often. Why do you smell blood if you don't mind me asking?
Got into a car crash with my friend. He was driving and a semi truck swerved in our lane and literally crushed him to death. Still tremor from the shock. The smell of iron, salt and burnt metal will never leave. There are other incidents but that one will haunt me until I kill myself.
 
Circles

Circles

There's a difference between existing and living.
Sep 3, 2018
1,728
I'm sorry. I understand <3
It's alright man I appreciate the kind words. The only thing about it is he was the closest of a 'friend' I ever had with another human being and even at that we were just as distant. I hate myself for not telling him thank you for being the only friend I had. Good times never last.
 
wiIIow

wiIIow

Arcanist
Sep 22, 2018
459
for how shitty my memory is otherwise, I do remember insane details about traumatic events. Can't remember anything else surrounding those events, or the memories I do still have feel like they're not my own. My whole timeline and sequence of events is so fucked up. But the things I don't want to remember - smells, sounds, microscopic insignificant details - I will never be able to forget.
 
Tragoedia Vitae

Tragoedia Vitae

Experienced
Oct 14, 2018
224
It would be fantastic if I could actually forget all the things which have happened to me. Unfortunately, I can't. That's because my mind simply won't allow me to forget. Sad and painful memories constantly haunt me in the form of intrusive thoughts which never fail to blight even my happier days. People who can actually forget---oh, how I envy them!

If only I couldn't think! Then I wouldn't remember. But I can, and I do. My mind is gradually becoming fossilized from all this obsessive remembrance, and I loathe every minute of it. My mind is no longer my own---why keep on living then?
 
ParamitePie

ParamitePie

Experienced
Oct 11, 2018
218
Surprisingly, not really. It's all pretty vague, except for really unconnected incidents, like the one time a classmate burst into tears and said I was bullying him, despite the fact I had never talked to him, or about him to anyone. There was also that one time a skinhead chased me across a busy street with a rusty syringe he picked up on the sidewalk when I was walking home from school. I still have no idea what that was about. Or that one time a homeless man threatened to attack me with a box cutter for not having cigarettes on me. Or that one time some girl tried to get her boyfriend to beat me up while I was walking home. A whole load of strange incidents, but none of them really contributed to my mental state.
 
Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
Hi,
Does anyone remembers the toxic incidents and abuse others done to you like it happened yesterday? I still remember many things through my whole life even if its 10+ years, I can remember clearly the abuse and how shitty other humans are.

I still remembers clearly the corporate abuse and shit that happened years ago and it looks like it happened yesterday.

Its strange how people say one should forget because it happened long time ago, and be astonished when I tell them I clearly remember the abuse and hate the offenders to this day.

Toxic pieces of shit leave their bruises on us. I wish I was never existed with these creatures.
Yes. Especialy if the incidents and their aftermath still effect me.
 
Trashcan

Trashcan

Trash
Aug 31, 2018
1,234
Sometimes. I’ve mostly suppressed painful memories. But sometimes I think back to embarrassing moments and cringe. It has kept me up at night a few times.

But most of my thoughts are revolves around suicide. I think a lot about my method, preparation, making sure I don’t get found in time, et . And then I also think a lot about other people who died, and envy the ones who were lucky enough to die young.
 
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