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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,286
I made a post recently about whether I should become religious or ctb. Well, I recently started attending daily mass. I’ve done 2 days and it’s already soul-crushing. I haven’t converted but I feel so alone when I’m sitting in the church. It’s physically painful. Also the act of putting on a suit each day and leaving at the same time just drives the knife in deeper, I hate monotony. No wonder I always lose jobs.

The only interaction with others is saying “peace be with you.” It’s empty and meaningless.

I still don’t want to die but life is torture. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place.
 
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typx

Specialist
May 4, 2018
381
Give it some time if you want to give it an honest shot.
 
Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,286
Give it some time if you want to give it an honest shot.

My mind is so broken. I hate all of this. It’s truly a diabolical punishment to be forced into this world.