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maybenexttime

maybenexttime

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I made tremendous progress the past year. In fact I haven't been on this site for a long time. My treatment has been TRT, hcg, ipamorelin, creatine, exercise, lots of sun and good diet. I use dexedrine, benzos and tianeptine quite a bit. .....and maybe the occasional bit of oxy

I crashed again (illness related term) and life is fucking pain lately. I refuse to go through this shit again, just kind of needed to vent. High on benzos, tianeptine and booze right now.

This pathetic life is like clockwork for me, I make any progress with my numerous illnesses, start being more productive, optimistic. Then whatever sick fuck of a higher force that exists just laughs and knocks me back down.
 
Celerity

Celerity

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Is anybody helping you get off these drugs? Does anybody in your life know what’s going on?
 
maybenexttime

maybenexttime

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Celerity said:
Is anybody helping you get off these drugs? Does anybody in your life know what’s going on?
Ya, people know. My problem isn't drugs, its a rare disease. The stims and benzos are prescribed. I'm supposed to fly to another country tomorrow, and suddenly I feel so fatigued I can barely get out of bed
 
Celerity

Celerity

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maybenexttime said:
Ya, people know. My problem isn't drugs, its a rare disease. The stims and benzos are prescribed. I'm supposed to fly to another country tomorrow, and suddenly I feel so fatigued I can barely get out of bed
Oh, I’m sorry. I misunderstood. I hope you feel better for your trip.
 
threesummers

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What about Adderall?
 
maybenexttime

maybenexttime

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threesummers said:
What about Adderall?
Dexedrine is just as strong, and unfortunately doesn't do much for the muscle weakness.