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eczema

eczema

Member
Oct 6, 2018
59
i'm autistic, and everyone in my family acts like i'm five. and when i was five they acted like i was a baby. my parents have legal custody of me and don't give me any choice in my own life- i'm hardly ever allowed to be alone at home. people don't talk about important things in front of me, and they give me the sugarcoated version of events when they do. i wasn't allowed to take the driver's ed test and my mother doesn't want me to get a job. the worst part is that i have to sleep in the same room as my parents. they're insanely overprotective. my father talks to me the way you would to a young child, things like "go see what mommy's up to". it's driving me crazy.

they seriously think i'm a little girl. my obsession with dolls doesn't help i guess, but i wouldn't give my dolls up for the world. i'm not allowed to leave the house by myself. i like cosplay, but i can only cosplay "covered up" characters (no skin showing). my clothes have to modest- long pants and loose shirts, no bra straps showing. once, i asked if i could cosplay fma envy and my father just laughed at me. apparently he "doesn't want his baby showing that much skin" and "boys would get the wrong idea" and "girls shouldn't show their midriffs or thighs". i'm not allowed to wear miniskirts or bikinis if he has anything to say about it. my mother is a little moer lenient but she does whatever he says.

it's a big reason i want to ctb. i have no control over my life and never will. i want to be independent, but according to my parents and therapists i "just can't handle it". i'm sick of going to family reunions and having relatives coo over me like i'm a damn dog. anybody else treated like this?
 
eczema

eczema

Member
Oct 6, 2018
59
This loss of agency must be awful. How old are you (don’t answer if it’s a sensitive topic for you), and do your parents still have some kind of *legal* guardianship over you?
i'm sixteen, and i guess i phrased that wrong- obviously they have custody over me, but i didn't specify why they shouldn't. it's a long story but essentially my mother has anger issues and used to be abusive. cps got involved when i attempted suicide because of it (overdosed and got pretty high, mumbled a lot of stuff to the nurses that made them concerned enough to call cps) but my father told me i'd been confused, assured me she was taking medication for that, and when i didn't want to retract my statement he mockingly repeated what i'd said. i was eleven. i thought i was just being overdramatic and stupid. so they have custody over me because i'm a teen, but they shouldn't because they were abusive in the past.

and please don't write this off as "well you ARE a child". i am not a toddler, which in general is how my parents treat me. people my age are allowed to drive and leave the house. i am treated unfairly because i am autistic.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
I see, I understand it now. They sound like awful people. I had family problems too (I’m quite sure I’m on the austistic spectrum as well), but yours are one order of magnitude worse.

It won’t be too long before you can get away from them, though. Might be worth to wait a while, if you enjoy life otherwise.
 
eczema

eczema

Member
Oct 6, 2018
59
I see, I understand it now. They sound like awful people. I had family problems too (I’m quite sure I’m on the austistic spectrum as well), but yours are one order of magnitude worse.

It won’t be too long before you can get away from them, though. Might be worth to wait a while, if you enjoy life otherwise.
i don't, honestly. it's less my family- who i do love, despite everything- and more just a sense of apathy and depression. i don't want to die of old age or in some senseless accident. it's my life, and i can end it when i want to.

and i actually can't leave once i reach adulthood. they've made it clear that they intend to get legal custody then.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
i don't, honestly. it's less my family- who i do love, despite everything- and more just a sense of apathy and depression. i don't want to die of old age or in some senseless accident. it's my life, and i can end it when i want to.

Absolutely! I wish I had died when I was your age too. That’s why I added the proviso “if you enjoy life otherwise”.

Everybody should have the right to end their lives. What’s frustrating is how difficult it is to do it without pain.