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Dog Food

Dog Food

POS
Mar 27, 2018
143
Does anyone here have things they want to do before they CTB? Places they want to go, people they want to meet? Or have you lost all interest in everything and just want death to come as quickly as possible?

For me, I would like to:
-graduate from college (I should have graduated last year, but I ended up in the mental ward for 2 months)
-be able to eat a meal without vomiting or feeling guilty
-have a genuine, open discussion with someone, maybe even making a friend
-lose my virginity (it's supposed to be easier for women, but because of anorexia, I look like an edgy 12 year old, and because of social anxiety, I can't talk to anyone)
-learn guitar
-visit France, where a bunch of family I've never met resides

And of course, there's the logistical stuff like making a perfect note, finding the perfect place, acquiring N from A, etc.

I'm interested in hearing what other people have to say. I wish you all luck in whatever you want to do.
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
ive lost all my dreams but its good you have bucket list, an aim, sth to look forward too.

i think that are some reasonable and nice goals too. godspeed with that.

i envy you
 
Duqu

Duqu

Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!
Aug 27, 2018
450
I would love to parachute out of a plane (attached to someone who actually pulls the chute, not jumping myself) with another person who records/takes pictures next to me. Finances are what really stop me, plus I'm unsure if they have body weight requirements (also have an eating disorder but my metabolism is so effed up that I'm over 200 lbs at 5'9 yet I eat 0-400 calories a day...I hate my body). I used to be terrified of heights but I bought a groupon a few years back for a helicopter lesson and it was a gorgeous day and the instructor actually REMOVED THE DOORS of the helicopter (just a little 2 seater) and I got to fly it! My fear of heights vanished that day. I still want to jump though.

Also I'd love to travel...again, expense, plus I get tired easily and it's hard to travel in a wheelchair when most places aren't too wheelchair friendly.
 
agreement

agreement

Mage
Mar 26, 2018
544
I've never grasped the bucket list thing: if I would have still things more important than die today, then I wouldn't feel like wanting to die and I wouldn't be suicidal.

I'd like to go again to Japan?
Yes!

It's doable in my current situation?
Barely, mostly not.

I'd like better to kill myself instantly and painlessly then go to Japan?
Hell yeah!
 
anna

anna

downfall
Mar 18, 2018
441
I wanted to visit the Highgate Cemetery
But I do not care anymore
 
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Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
1,573
Trust me, if I could fulfill my bucket list I wouldn't want to kill myself anylonger.
 
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QueenEtna

Gone
Jul 29, 2018
258
My bucket list :

-Become a professional artist
-Find love

that's all I want in life
 
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couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565

dont you live in a big city?

you could use the darknet

if you live in europe yoi could pm me your adress and id send you some :ahhha:

no srsly should be no problem for you to order via darknet
 
Duqu

Duqu

Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!
Aug 27, 2018
450
Look up Netheravon airfield near Salisbury. One of the most popular clubs there sharing space with army training. I did 2 static line jumps where you get out the plane at 2500ft on your own but the chute opens by itself as a long ripcord is tied to the pilots seat.
Tandem jumps are more common, stapped to an instructor, you do nothing but fall and prepare to land. Usually 10,000 to 12,000ft.
I think there is a weight limit of 16 stone, check that.

That's cool..I'm in the US though and if I can't afford to jump I definitely can't afford to fly to Europe lol.
 
FullFat

FullFat

^best order at Micky-D's ever
Apr 27, 2018
375
dont you live in a big city?

you could use the darknet

if you live in europe yoi could pm me your adress and id send you some :ahhha:

no srsly should be no problem for you to order via darknet
FL suburb actually. I was just saying in that thread that rural would be too remote for me. Thanks for the offer though! I know some people who know some people who know some people in my town who could hook me up. I should try harder. I just don't want it getting back to my family. My brother knows practically everyone and definitely some of the coke heads. As for darknet, I've never ordered anything on there before. Any tips?
 
StarDust

StarDust

Mage
Aug 21, 2018
508
Honestly, my bucket list is complete, there is nothing left for me to see at this point...I guess the one last this is I will go to my fav beach and have a lovely couple of days...hey, if I am gonna CTB I might as well do it looking sexy and tan.... *shrugs*
 
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Slacker

Slacker

⋔⊬ ☌⍜⎅, ⟟⏁´⌇ ⎎⎍⌰⌰ ⍜⎎ ⌿⍜⌰⟟☊⟒
Aug 17, 2018
298
also have an eating disorder but my metabolism is so effed up that I'm over 200 lbs at 5'9 yet I eat 0-400 calories a day...I hate my body)

How can someone survive eating less then 500kcal per day??? Normally this leads to more muscle depletion than to fett loss. Is this possible because u are in a wheelchair?
 
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strained03

strained03

Member
Aug 1, 2018
66
How can someone survive eating less then 500kcal per day??? Normally this leads to more muscle depletion than to fett loss. Is this possible because u are in a wheelchair?
It is possible. Check MyProAna forums.
 
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FullFat

FullFat

^best order at Micky-D's ever
Apr 27, 2018
375
people who live in florida can be depressed?

i was in fort myers once and it was sooo beautiful :love:
I actually hate a lot of what makes Florida Florida including the heat, the beach, Disney World, roller coasters, I-4 the road to hell, etc. I haven't been over to Fort Myers. I live in central FL and never really ventured further south. You have family there, or was it just vacation?
 
Duqu

Duqu

Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!
Aug 27, 2018
450
How can someone survive eating less then 500kcal per day??? Normally this leads to more muscle depletion than to fett loss. Is this possible because u are in a wheelchair?

Easily. I don't do a lot of exercising (can't; my joints are to effed up), and like I said my metabolism is shot so if I eat more than that I gain weight...
 
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couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
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I actually hate a lot of what makes Florida Florida including the heat, the beach, Disney World, roller coasters, I-4 the road to hell, etc. I haven't been over to Fort Myers. I live in central FL and never really ventured further south. You have family there, or was it just vacation?


vacation

im.from europe
 
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