I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
I’m on day 3 sober off that lovely evil drug called Adderall. I knew I would feel like shit I have come off a number of times. But because I struggle to throw away the pills I’ve relapsed. I’ve even relapsed not having pills and going back to phsyc doctor after 3 months sober. Yea I have an addiction issue on top of other issues. Today was ok I went to gym and I did eat but I’m really hungry again and cannot drag myself to the grocery store. This guy texted me and made me feel shitty and that added to my already more sensitive state. Yea I feel really suicidal right now because I can’t will myself to do shit. It generally gets better after first week but these first days Shew! I just want to find a cliff and jump off. Hard to deal with the resurgence of emotions.