Solid 5 again. I still don’t think this will last, and for me 5, isn’t “truly good” but it’s exponentially better than my usual 0-2. I just feel numb & insignificant. I am insignificant. I don’t matter. I need to finally accept that.
People (my parents) should not have had children into a world with so much suffering, a world with overpopulation, pollution and war and a world where our pets are treated better than humans. People are destroying this planet - humanity is not a species that deserves to live on.
Probably a 2.5. I agree, with the post above.. my parents should never have had me. Especially as my mom knew my dad was cheating on her with my now step mom & mother of my littlest brother. Like what did they think I was gonna fix their problems?? No!! what could I do? I don’t think it was fair to bring me into the world when their situation was so bad. I hate myself & my life. I have no one.
Two at most, made catastrophic decision which brought me here. With no other way out. Don’t want to go but cannot live with the chronic illness which is the result. Hate to leave massively supportive family and friiends but no other way out, no other solution cannot fight. Anymore no way to win, plagued by visions of the future.