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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
I went through a period recently where I was having about four Monster energy drinks a day. It got to the point that I developed a tolerance to caffeine and it didn't work on me anymore.
 
Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
For me, caffeine sometimes causes me to become extremely anxious to the point that I think I'm having a panic attack or it does absolutely nothing and I feel no different than I felt before I had caffeine.

So no, while I wish I could go to coffee for energy, it doesn't do me any good... but I do crave for the taste of coffee once in a while and take the risk of drinking it for fun. :)
 
akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
I went through a period recently where I was having about four Monster energy drinks a day. It got to the point that I developed a tolerance to caffeine and it didn't work on me anymore.
Same. I used to drink Monster and then fall asleep right after. I weaned myself off it eventually. I'm dependent on coffee (not because of it's effects) but because it's routine for me. I'd go batshit crazy if it's not the first thing I have in the morning like my entire day is ruined.
 
bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,548
Same. I used to drink Monster and then fall asleep right after. I weaned myself off it eventually. I'm dependent on coffee (not because of it's effects) but because it's routine for me. I'd go batshit crazy if it's not the first thing I have in the morning like my entire day is ruined.
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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
Same. I used to drink Monster and then fall asleep right after. I weaned myself off it eventually. I'm dependent on coffee (not because of it's effects) but because it's routine for me. I'd go batshit crazy if it's not the first thing I have in the morning like my entire day is ruined.

Yeah; I had to wean myself off it, too. I was definitely addicted. They were expensive, too, so I'm glad I'm not spending that kind of money anymore.
 
FadedMemory

FadedMemory

Student
Aug 5, 2018
134
I'm always tired and sleepy but caffeine doesn't have effect on me anymore. I never tried Monster or Red Bull because my parents don't allow it.
 
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GoingSoonish

GoingSoonish

It is what it is
Aug 19, 2018
126
I need coffee so that i can function at all. I get like 2-3 hours of sleep (if that) every night and usually have stuff to do in the day.
 
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akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
Only thing that helps me with energy really is suboxone or kratom.
Did you go through trial and error with kratom and sorting out the right dose that works best for you? And how long did it took you? I think I bought a bad strain/batch. All it ever does is makes me nauseated.
 
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satou

satou

not yet
Sep 3, 2018
225
I think I'm mostly immune to caffeine now. Actually this week I've been cutting back on the number of cups I've been drinking.

To me coffee does little to combat actual fatigue or tiredness. At best it delays sleep, but only if I drink enormous amounts of coffee. Rather I would say coffee can give a little boost when I'm already feeling awake.
 
Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
Did you go through trial and error with kratom and sorting out the right dose that works best for you? And how long did it took you? I think I bought a bad strain/batch. All it ever does is makes me nauseated.
No just bought maeng du kratom and put some in a shot glass and downed it which tastes disgusting. It worked great if it makes you nauseated might be using too much.
 
akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
No just bought maeng du kratom and put some in a shot glass and downed it which tastes disgusting. It worked great if it makes you nauseated might be using too much.
I bought white maeng da and take mine with chocolate milk/juice. I've only started taking it recently and I started with 0.5g. I broke out into cold sweats and passed out for several hours; woke up when it was already dark out only to vomit then fell back asleep. I reduced it to 0.25g and I still feel nauseous. I tried taking it with/without food, before/after eating etc. It's either it is a bad batch or because I'm malnourished and it affects me more. Idk. I really thought it would help with my depression/anxiety so I function better.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
I bought white maeng da and take mine with chocolate milk/juice. I've only started taking it recently and I started with 0.5g. I broke out into cold sweats and passed out for several hours; woke up when it was already dark out only to vomit then fell back asleep. I reduced it to 0.25g and I still feel nauseous. I tried taking it with/without food, before/after eating etc. It's either it is a bad batch or because I'm malnourished and it affects me more. Idk. I really thought it would help with my depression/anxiety so I function better.
I never tried white only green kratom and you should find a online kratom vendor that has good reviews. They also have kratom chocolate and gummies which might be good to try. It can be helpful but also can be addicting if you use too often.
 
Edward

Edward

Belial
Jul 12, 2018
24
I drink at least 3 or 4 cups a day lol, can't do anything without it, and heavily dependent
 
FullFat

FullFat

^best order at Micky-D's ever
Apr 27, 2018
375
Combined with the right dose of my meds and a smidgen of luck, coffee can temporarily make me feel pretty damn excited (for what I don't know).