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VanHeineken

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Apr 10, 2018
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I have a lot of mental agony. I will not try to explain it. But it jumps up on me not only in bed but all the time. It's negative thoughts and panic mostly. Sometimes I scream. My life is really shit and I can't change it. I was hoping to kill myself this summer, but now I realise I will not make it. I am too afraid.

I really hate myself!
 
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nuclearsnake

Student
Jul 11, 2018
147
I often feel pain so awful I want to tear myself apart on the spot. It's like your insides are slowly being ripped apart and there's nothing you can do to stop it except for ending it all.

Other times I'm just exhausted and drained. I wish I could lay down and fall asleep forever.
 
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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
I’m so sorry. Do you eat? Change your clothes? I basically wear the same dress if going out which I wash every other day. Otherwise I’m in sweatpants.

I do eat, thanks to my husband making dinner. I don't eat breakfast and I eat some crackers for lunch. I just don't have an appetite for breakfast or lunch. I have to force myself to eat the crackers. Usually by dinnertime I have an appetite.

I wear the same pair of pajamas for many days without changing my clothes. I know, it's gross.
 
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Smilla

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Apr 30, 2018
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I do eat, thanks to my husband making dinner. I don't eat breakfast and I eat some crackers for lunch. I just don't have an appetite for breakfast or lunch. I have to force myself to eat the crackers. Usually by dinnertime I have an appetite.

I wear the same pair of pajamas for many days without changing my clothes. I know, it's gross.

I do too. It’s just how this depression thing works...don’t feel too bad. Looks like we are similar. I used to be fastitidious until a couple years ago.
 
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ScaredOfLife

Arcanist
Jul 9, 2018
441
I do too. It’s just how this depression thing works...don’t feel too bad. Looks like we are similar. I used to be fastitidious until a couple years ago.

I haven't been fastidious in years. I hate all this depression and anxiety. For years it's been like this.

I wish things were different for all of us. I'm sorry you're in pain, too.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
I pretty much have to take suboxone to function it gives me energy. When
I’ve stopped suboxone after the shitty withdrawals for a month I then have zero energy to do anything.
 
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agreement

Mage
Mar 26, 2018
544
I feel you.
Been there, done that.
Like if my legs or arms were aching or numbing, it was difficult for me to move in a more confortable position.
Currently I'm better though.
 
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KCN

El revisionismo en castillano
Jul 16, 2018
230
Somedays I actually spend half of my day lying in bed and falling asleep because my body feels really asthenic and my brain, being part of the body, doesn't cooperate that much in making me feel better. I even have to crawl to the bathroom when I need to go, walking is sometimes not an option.

This usually goes round in circles until I snap out of it for some reason, then I'm back again to this for a couple of days. I wonder when will it stop
 
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Mage
Jun 26, 2018
501
I feel like that every day, I have to force myself to do even the simplest things, it's like I'm neck deep in tar.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
What’s Suboxone?
A medication used for people getting off heroin usually but it has other uses and can help other things. For me it affects me differently then most people.
 
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