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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
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Hi,
This is similar to Random thoughts topic but more focused about ctb, ideas and methods.

I'll start,

I'm thinking of filling the space (car/room/...) with objects to make the size smaller to fill with gas. I don't know if this works? I can do it easily but I don't know what's the next step.

The car if filled with objects will be very small and should be filled with gas easily
 
ctkmtt

ctkmtt

living the dream
Aug 8, 2018
39
I really want to do it tonight, and I'm psyching myself up to, but I just can't get this feeling of dread to go away. Not dread as in I'm scared to do it, more like I just don't want to die alone. But I guess we all do.
 
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okyeah

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Jul 20, 2018
425
I really want to do it tonight, and I'm psyching myself up to, but I just can't get this feeling of dread to go away. Not dread as in I'm scared to do it, more like I just don't want to die alone. But I guess we all do.

Yeah. I really wanted to do it this weekend but of course I splurge a bunch of money on food and I feel just better enough to be lazy/comfortable to not setup what I want. And when I actually realize I could actually fucking end it or get brain damage trying - it gets too real in my head and I just leave it again.
 
ctkmtt

ctkmtt

living the dream
Aug 8, 2018
39
Yeah. I really wanted to do it this weekend but of course I splurge a bunch of money on food and I feel just better enough to be lazy/comfortable to not setup what I want. And when I actually realize I could actually fucking end it or get brain damage trying - it gets too real in my head and I just leave it again.
I feel you. I spent the rest of this month's money on my favorite foods and have been enjoying them as my lasts. I guess I'm not even afraid to get brain damage anymore, whatever gets me out of this hell honestly. I feel like my existence is nothing but a concept that's been formed by various undesirable conditions, and that I'll take anything to stop being myself at this point. My self hatred is unbearable.
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
1,572
My anxiety makes me not wanting to take my life.

Being honest, being alive is very painful, but 1000x easier: you haven't to do anything for keep living (just living) but killing yourself is extremely hard.
 
Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
625
I have to died this time. I just really can’t wake up again. It’s ok if it hurts ... it just has to work. So think I might just unload a gun into this POS and wait till it dies. I know it’s going to be horrible thrashing and blood and pain.... but then I don’t have to do this anymore.
 
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Comatose11

Mage
Jul 26, 2018
576
I'm disappointed that the ligature I used last night did not work. I am hoping that the one I ordered will get the job done. I might try to combine it with another method just to increase the chances.
 
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lv-gras

fledermausßßßßßßßß
Jul 27, 2018
621
this is a bit more fanciful than some of the other posts but still thinking in a random manner of how to make danish salt licorice with SN
 
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amatteroflifeordeath

Electrical engineer born in 1980.
Jul 18, 2018
57
I wish I died on the day of my first attempt :I

I logged in just to like this message.
20 years ago, I tried to do it for the first time.

This is exactly my tought. And this is exactly what I tell a pro-life when he starts the usual narrative of how things will get better. The issue is that I know that I might experience better moments, but I am not interested in paying the price for those elusive moments with much more pain, suffering and illness.

And this also something I tell myself, even in the rare relief moments I have. So, yes, I am not interested in things getting better. I want to sleep forever.
 
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lv-gras

fledermausßßßßßßßß
Jul 27, 2018
621
I logged in just to like this message.
20 years ago, I tried to do it for the first time.

This is exactly my tought. And this is exactly what I tell a pro-life when he starts the usual narrative of how things will get better. The issue is that I know that I might experience better moments, but I am not interested in paying the price for those elusive moments with much more pain, suffering and illness.

And this also something I tell myself, even in the rare relief moments I have. So, yes, I am not interested in things getting better. I want to sleep forever.

right now

wish i died on my second to latest
 
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Broken Widow

Broken Widow

Wildlife crisis
Aug 20, 2018
36
How easy do Americans have it ? Walk into a shop and buy a gun and away you go. Gun violence ? I'm surprised there's not a million people killed every week

It's actually not that easy to get a gun in all states, and impossible if you have a 5150/psych record (similar to being sanctioned in Europe). Background checks are mandatory and if you have a psych (or criminal) record, you can't get a gun.
 
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Deutsch

Member
Aug 20, 2018
98
I think we must develop a method. We really need a very easy and accessible way to end it. Many people can't stay anymore and being forced to live biologically and face more abuse and suffering is horrible.

Everyone brainstorm please
Don't despair my friend, there are good methods right now. What with all the complicated things surrounding the suicide scene right now, it may seem difficult... but there will always be solid and untouchable methods like partial suspension, formic/sulfuric acid, full suspension, guns, etc. It is just a matter of overcoming the survival instinct, God willing.