• Welcome! SanctionedSuicide is a forum for the discussion of mental illness and suicide. Please read our rules and our Principles.
    If you are in need of immediate support, please call the Samaritans hotline at (877) 870-4673, or check our recovery resources.

T

Throwaway563078

Experienced
Oct 6, 2018
273
I can't connect with people. I am pretty awkward but beyond that, I simply can't "people", and I won't lie and say it doesn't hurt. I've always felt alone and an outcast. I think there's something fundamentally wrong with me where I can't connect with others. And it's one of many reasons for me to ctb

Anyone else feel similar?
 
Weeping Garbage Can

Weeping Garbage Can

ਕਿਰਪਾ ਕਰਕੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਭੁੱਲ ਜਾਓ ❤️
Oct 31, 2018
316
I can't connect with people. I am pretty awkward but beyond that, I simply can't "people", and I won't lie and say it doesn't hurt. I've always felt alone and an outcast. I think there's something fundamentally wrong with me where I can't connect with others. And it's one of many reasons for me to ctb

Anyone else feel similar?
I also feel can't "people". I haven't been able to do so all my life :/ and especially when I was a sensitive little child that had nobody reassuring me, that truly hurt. I also can't connect much with others, at least on a full level anyways, so I know how confusing that can be. Do you feel better on your own, or simply lonely? I've noticed that now I like being alone, and other people's company is often tiring. I also just want to barricade myself in a room so I don't anyone, and so they don't hurt me. You aren't alone, at least in the regard of feeling like an outsider in everything, because I feel like that as well...which is bittersweet
 
T

Throwaway563078

Experienced
Oct 6, 2018
273
I also feel can't "people". I haven't been able to do so all my life :/ and especially when I was a sensitive little child that had nobody reassuring me, that truly hurt. I also can't connect much with others, at least on a full level anyways, so I know how confusing that can be. Do you feel better on your own, or simply lonely? I've noticed that now I like being alone, and other people's company is often tiring. I also just want to barricade myself in a room so I don't anyone, and so they don't hurt me. You aren't alone, at least in the regard of feeling like an outsider in everything, because I feel like that as well...which is bittersweet

I was also a sensitive kid and I still am sensitive, also didn't have anyone reassuring me. I had a period of time in my teens where I became a complete loner and actually enjoyed my own company. But not anymore. I also can't be alone because I work etc so not being able to connect or even socialize sometimes triggers me. If I had the choice I'd never leave my room. Thanks it's a bit helpful knowing I'm not alone
 
Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
189
Yeah, I have trouble connecting to people even on here when you'd think of all places it might be easier. I feel like I don't belong anywhere and part of me can be fine with that, other times not so much. Interaction is draining and exhausting. I've socially isolated myself for over ten years now and that ended up turning into agoraphobia. I don't know. It's one of the many reasons I just want to disappear, so I don't mess anything up with other people and they can't with me either.

There was a book I remember reading years ago called "No Longer Human" by Osamu Dazai. There's lots of quotes/passages I recall finding relatable.
 
M

Miss clefable

-
Aug 23, 2018
1,589
Yeah, I have trouble connecting to people even on here when you'd think of all places it might be easier. I feel like I don't belong anywhere and part of me can be fine with that, other times not so much. Interaction is draining and exhausting. I've socially isolated myself for over ten years now and that ended up turning into agoraphobia. I don't know. It's one of the many reasons I just want to disappear, so I don't mess anything up with other people and they can't with me either.

There was a book I remember reading years ago called "No Longer Human" by Osamu Dazai. There's lots of quotes/passages I recall finding relatable.
I love you Lunar your welcome here anytime to be honest I miss you
 
littlelungs

littlelungs

Arcanist
Oct 21, 2018
492
I'm awful with people. I can go back and forth between being really obsessive over/attached to someone and unable to gauge appropriate personal boundaries and maintain my own dignity worth a single damn, and being so withdrawn and interpersonally isolated to the point where I honest-to-god can't make eye contact with literally anyone, and resort to climbing out a window to avoid any possibility of engaging in small talk with a housemate (yes, that happened... more than once). It sucks.
 
T

Throwaway563078

Experienced
Oct 6, 2018
273
I'm awful with people. I can go back and forth between being really obsessive over/attached to someone and unable to gauge appropriate personal boundaries and maintain my own dignity worth a single damn, and being so withdrawn and interpersonally isolated to the point where I honest-to-god can't make eye contact with literally anyone, and resort to climbing out a window to avoid any possibility of engaging in small talk with a housemate (yes, that happened... more than once). It sucks.
It does suck, I can relate. I also go back and forth
 
BeHope

BeHope

Member
Oct 31, 2018
89
I'm awful with people as well and have social anxiety disorder (SAD) which really sucks. However, I'm an introvert and am much happier when I'm alone so it works out okay. The only times I wish I was better at making friends is when the teacher says "get into groups!" or "partner up!". Those phrases make me want to kill myself.
 
S

Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
I can relate. I always thought there’s something wrong with me. I was born with a missing gear or something. I can’t fully relate to people, and it is my fault. I try to say that I don’t care, but I do. At least some of the time. I suffer when I see people connecting easily, effortlessly. I’ll never be like that.
 
T

Throwaway563078

Experienced
Oct 6, 2018
273
I'm awful with people as well and have social anxiety disorder (SAD) which really sucks. However, I'm an introvert and am much happier when I'm alone so it works out okay. The only times I wish I was better at making friends is when the teacher says "get into groups!" or "partner up!". Those phrases make me want to kill myself.
I also have social anxiety and I'm an introvert but even beyond that I have trouble connecting. Oh man I hated group activities in school
 
Deleted member 2141

Deleted member 2141

The angel of choice is enduring.
Aug 30, 2018
5,309
I can't connect with people. I am pretty awkward but beyond that, I simply can't "people", and I won't lie and say it doesn't hurt. I've always felt alone and an outcast. I think there's something fundamentally wrong with me where I can't connect with others. And it's one of many reasons for me to ctb

Anyone else feel similar?
I do and I believe my root causes are in social anxiety (and general anxiety) and of course, Aspergers. Those disorders have fucked up my social life more than I can ever imagine. I could not just get social cues, body language, and most of the time, I can't really hold a conversation (at least not properly) - I either sound exasperated or sound on-edge. At this point, I pretty much just resigned and accepted that I suck with people, it isn't (likely) going to get better, and just decided that I'm gonna be lonely until the end of life.