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Lifeless mindset

Lifeless mindset

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Having a partner is nice and all but its not easy to find one at all. I've had multiple partners back out of our plans and 2 of them were close friends of mine. The 1st one got accepted into a nice college and saw it as an opportunity to do good in life (which I don't blame her) the 2nd one had a mental breakdown one night and ended up bringing it up to her boyfriend( who is my best friend) and things didn't go through after that. He told me he wasn't mad at me and that he just wanted to make sure me and his girlfriend were okay yet I still felt terrible that I was about to kill myself with my best friends girlfriend. The 3rd I found through the partners megathread and our ctb timelines just didn't match up. Each time I found a partner i got so excited but I guess I have to except the fact that I'm gonna die alone.
 
Taki

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The thought of doing it with someone is pretty foreign to me. Do you think you’d feel better with a partner?
 
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Lifeless mindset

Lifeless mindset

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Taki said:
The thought of doing it with someone is pretty foreign to me. Do you think you’d feel better with a partner?
At first it didn't matter to me, then I was given the opportunity to die alongside another person and it made me realize how comforting the thought of it is. So yes I know I would feel better with a partner but some people just aren't truly ready or the circumstances don't work out.
hotelbeneathground said:
Yeah, I don't get it either
I sometimes like to think of suicide as something that is beautiful and committing suicide with someone else, especially someone close to you can add to that beauty. In my mind, its the most beautiful thing ever. I understand how real death is and I understand how real life is but I love to think of my life as a story and thats just how I'd like my story to end. Even if I didn't hate my life I would still choose to die from suicide. Thats how I want to write my story.
 
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hotelbeneathground

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Attempting to ctb alone is complicated enough, if you ask me. So many more things can go wrong if you're doing it with someone else
 
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hotelbeneathground said:
Attempting to ctb alone is complicated enough, if you ask me. So many more things can go wrong if you're doing it with someone else
I think that would depend on the method. Other then that I don't see what else could go wrong.
 
weepingfree

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The dying alone goes with the living alone. It's the world we live in.. that pretends we're not all connected and dependent on each other.
 
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I think that if you are in a developed nation the person would have to immediately remove themselves from vicinity. It's a crime to sit there and allow someone to kill themselves. They can be charged with shit.
 
reversenightmare

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I don’t know why, but I find peace in the fact I will die alone, like that’s absolutely how I want it to be. I’ve spent my whole life alone, which is one of the strongest reasons why I want to CTB. What would be the point of having a partner, if I don’t get to emotionally connect with them and live happy moments with them?
Death is death, it’s the end of it all. Not a beginning, the end.
 
FuneralCry

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Dying alone is what I want. I want to die far away from anybody else, but I guess we are all different. I just think in general, in life it is best not to rely on others too much.
 
greyismyfavecolor

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I sometimes think about that. Like, making up a fantasy that I'll meet someone who will be just like me and will want to die with me (like Bonnie and Clyde but for suicide instead of crimes).
But I know that's just because I'm lonely all the time. I have to make something up to keep my thoughts busy, I guess. I know I will die alone
 
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it's possible to find a partner, but especially on the mega-thread, your odds are super slim.