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randomguy

randomguy

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Aug 18, 2018
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I know that being sad drives us into some mad creativity that lead us to art. Some make poetry, some make drawings, some make music (me). It's a shame that we don't give value to our production because we think we are a punch of garbage when we're depressed. So do you guys have some way to express your feelings through art ?
 
SunSetsForever

SunSetsForever

Member
Apr 6, 2018
34
I know that being sad drives us into some mad creativity that lead us to art. Some make poetry, some make drawings, some make music (me). It's a shame that we don't give value to our production because we think we are a punch of garbage when we're depressed. So do you guys have some way to express your feelings through art ?
I compose music, write stories, and finished my first novel last year. Been writing the drafts for my next couple novels too. Becoming an author was my dream job. I’ve got some heavy antinatalist/pro-choice themes in my stories.
 
randomguy

randomguy

Member
Aug 18, 2018
52
I compose music, write stories, and finished my first novel last year. Been writing the drafts for my next couple novels too. Becoming an author was my dream job. I’ve got some heavy antinatalist/pro-choice themes in my stories.
I surely would like to read them
 
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joydivision

joydivision

Member
Aug 26, 2018
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I know that being sad drives us into some mad creativity that lead us to art. Some make poetry, some make drawings, some make music (me). It's a shame that we don't give value to our production because we think we are a punch of garbage when we're depressed. So do you guys have some way to express your feelings through art ?
What kind of music? I used to be a dj so I used to produce electronica music....but I love most music
 
Marystevenson1001

Marystevenson1001

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Aug 17, 2018
69
I remember reading a study that showed that mental illness was closely linked with creativity and artistic talent. For me, I write, paint, draw, do string art, decorate... Well I used to. These days I just stay in bed, read this site and think about ctb.
 
nzdarkshark

nzdarkshark

The Loved Mistake
Sep 4, 2018
401
I'm a digital artist - and used to find vent drawings depicting how I felt really helped get the thoughts out of my head. Unfortunatly I barely have the motivation to draw now - I just write songs.
 
randomguy

randomguy

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Aug 18, 2018
52
What kind of music? I used to be a dj so I used to produce electronica music....but I love most music
I kinda dunno my kind of music lol. I just know they're never good enough to me. But some people like them. I can send you a link to my soundclou account if you want.
 
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randomguy

randomguy

Member
Aug 18, 2018
52
I play chess against myself and move one peice a week.
Yesterday during hoovering I knocked the whole board on the floor.
Two years effort gone, just like that.
Anyway, new game starts tomorrow at 9am.
Well... I find this really poetic. And I'm not being ironic.
 
randomguy

randomguy

Member
Aug 18, 2018
52
I'm a digital artist - and used to find vent drawings depicting how I felt really helped get the thoughts out of my head. Unfortunatly I barely have the motivation to draw now - I just write songs.
I used to draw too. Now I just make songs, but even this is demanding a growing effort from me
 
randomguy

randomguy

Member
Aug 18, 2018
52
I remember reading a study that showed that mental illness was closely linked with creativity and artistic talent. For me, I write, paint, draw, do string art, decorate... Well I used to. These days I just stay in bed, read this site and think about ctb.
I thought about this link too, It' sad. I can relate. Even eating is too tiring for me, making songs is an huge effort.
 
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Duqu

Duqu

Curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!
Aug 27, 2018
450
I am c/ping this from another thread because I'm too lazy to type it up again:

I USED to do a lot of stuff on photoshop...manipulations, airbrush painting, made a little money editing peoples' photos (family photos where there was something wrong, modeling portfolios, etc) but that was a while ago. I don't really have any artistic "thoughts" or talents anymore. I also used to write halfway decent poetry back in the day. When I CTB I'll post a link to my old DeviantArt if you want to look through more of it.

Here's a few examples (sorry about the black line in the first one; I had a watermark with my screen name that I use just about everywhere that I didn't want to show and I did that one in Gimp (not photoshop) so I didn't have the layers to just delete the layer with the screen name on it):

https://ibb.co/nvtVhz
This one is pure image manipulation.

https://ibb.co/mmKnee
This one is mostly manipulation with a little painting.

https://ibb.co/cSPxUe
This one is one of my favourite pieces; and it's aaaalll airbrush painting (with a few brush exceptions). Again sorry about the painted line I had another screen name watermark

ETA this is one of the first pieces I ever did, in Gimp back in the stone ages when I was running Linux (so we're talking 2005ish) and Gimp was soooo primitive. Now it's essentially a bare-bones, free photoshop (and I haven't a clue how to use it).
https://ibb.co/kZ1Hee
 
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I was an artist and I never pursued it. I was a graphic artist and illustrator at work. I used to like to write too. Creativity comes with its own set of problems and if you don't allow it to be expressed it can lead to mental illness.
 
SunSetsForever

SunSetsForever

Member
Apr 6, 2018
34
I surely would like to read them
I will try to publish within the next year, two years tops—my deadline for my bucket list is 5 years, and I need to publish at least three books before I ctb. I feel we sorely need more books pro-choice/antinatalist.
I’ll send a recommendation your way once they’re out.
Funny, I let a non-suicidal friend read it earlier this year, and they couldn’t understand why the characters said, thought, and did things that seemed to them impossible to consider.
“No one thinks like this,” they told me. Little did they know, I do. I like to say it is not a book for living people, but for dead people.
 
SunSetsForever

SunSetsForever

Member
Apr 6, 2018
34
I am c/ping this from another thread because I'm too lazy to type it up again:

I USED to do a lot of stuff on photoshop...manipulations, airbrush painting, made a little money editing peoples' photos (family photos where there was something wrong, modeling portfolios, etc) but that was a while ago. I don't really have any artistic "thoughts" or talents anymore. I also used to write halfway decent poetry back in the day. When I CTB I'll post a link to my old DeviantArt if you want to look through more of it.

Here's a few examples (sorry about the black line in the first one; I had a watermark with my screen name that I use just about everywhere that I didn't want to show and I did that one in Gimp (not photoshop) so I didn't have the layers to just delete the layer with the screen name on it):

https://ibb.co/nvtVhz
This one is pure image manipulation.

https://ibb.co/mmKnee
This one is mostly manipulation with a little painting.

https://ibb.co/cSPxUe
This one is one of my favourite pieces; and it's aaaalll airbrush painting (with a few brush exceptions). Again sorry about the painted line I had another screen name watermark

ETA this is one of the first pieces I ever did, in Gimp back in the stone ages when I was running Linux (so we're talking 2005ish) and Gimp was soooo primitive. Now it's essentially a bare-bones, free photoshop (and I haven't a clue how to use it).
https://ibb.co/kZ1Hee
Really like your stuff, Duqu.
 
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akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
A couple of months back I was interested in video editing. I thought it was something I could pursue. I was mistaken. I'm frustrated writer/poet. Too many rejections. Failures. I only had one poem published online. Fml.
 
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