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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
Sometimes I think it’s possible that when I die everything else in my reality goes away with me. Maybe everyone & everything “outside” of me is a product of my mind. I’m currently so depressed that everything seems nightmarish, much of society irrational, struggling for success / decent tolerable existence absurd. I have no way of knowing if anyone out there really exists - all I know is my perception of them. Maybe they don’t have self reflection and that’s why they aren’t depressed and seemingly not bothered by anything. Really no way of connecting with anyone - even with a “soulmate” you still have the internal thoughtlife which cannot be shared or acces by the other

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Red star

Red star

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Sep 15, 2018
208
In a way yes and no. It is a product of..I dont want to say consciousness cause it could also be subconsciousness and traumas. Everyone and everything outside of me has their own consciousness/sub etc. thats creating for them too.
 
Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
In a way yes and no. It is a product of..I dont want to say consciousness cause it could also be subconsciousness and traumas. Everyone and everything outside of me has their own consciousness/sub etc. thats creating for them too.
There’s no way of knowing for certain that anyone else you interact with or see outside of yourself has a consciousness. I’ll have very vivid dreams about people in my life and at the time I have no way of knowing it’s a dream- my mind created that. Just as when I’m awake I project what these people outside may be thinking/ feeling/ experiencing emotionally.
 
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Justanotherconsumer

Justanotherconsumer

Paragon
Jul 9, 2018
974
I have thought of that before, all illusion disappears with pain though, if you have ever had a flat tire at night while freezing cold and raining while changing the tire, it's all to real, unfortunately.
 
bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
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End.of.the.line

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Sep 25, 2018
64
I do think this sometimes but i don't know, your consciousness would have to be pretty damn powerful to create such a detailed reality with so many different things going on all at once. Sometimes I do consider the idea we or just me might be living in a computer simulation but even that seems a little far fetched. There has always been a small part of me that thinks I could be living a Truman show with people or different beings watching my every move, I don't really believe this either but anythings possible right.
 
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Essie

Student
Oct 20, 2018
100
I am not joking when I say that 11 years ago, this topic turned episodes of panic attacks I was getting from losing hair from a medication OD into a raging full-on 24/7 panic disorder that I could no longer function with. I am a spiritual person and was studying my beliefs when I ran across a fairly well-known person who blogs on things like this who postulated that you are the only one who exists and it's all your imagination. I don't know why but that thought scared the bejesus out of me, and I couldn't prove him wrong at the time. It took 2 years to crawl my way out of that hole, mainly using the logic that if that were true, I'd have a much, much better life than I had.

Since then, I have not only read every book on the subject of consciousness published but also participated in years of studies and am fairly straight I understand how it works. But that was a living nightmare for me then.