- Oct 3, 2018
Do you give hints indirectly to people what you going to ctb?
Yeah. I've had an aunt attempt such a misinformed method(overdosing on a variety of random pills)and it only resulted in hospitalization and unnecessary suffering. (I do wonder what would have happened had nobody encountered her,she probably would have died but very,very painfully)Occasionally the topic comes up and I can't help but show that I am well informed about suicide methods and their likelihood of success etc. Its hard to keep my mouth shut when people start expressing their views that suicide is a simple matter of overdosing on sleeping pills or cutting your wrists etc, or that in general it is easy to voluntarily die if the desire strikes.
So yeah if anyone is paying attention it will seem likely I have researched the topic, and combined with my avowed inclination towards pessimism and antinatalism it's probably easy to guess that my attitude to living is complicated. Of course many people who know me know I have been hospitalised for suicidal ideation anyway.
100% agree with this, although I only have good people in my life and I am not childish so would never even drop the slightest hint for those reasons anyway. Hell I don't even want to do it for the people it will hurt, but it is what is is due to my situation, and I personally am not afraid of death after cancer twice.No, I don't.
It's unfair to negatively implicate or scare people based on a decision you're making. It's unfair to encourage people to feel responsible for the security of a life you've opted to willingly endanger. Manipulative and cruel, especially to bestow that on the people you love; the people that care about you.
Circumstances will vary, but whether you're actually going to do it or not, hint dropping is harmful, attention seeking behavior that I loathe. I would never willingly attempt to envelop people in misery for the sake of being mysterious or other miserable power fantasies.
If you need help: seek it. Don't beat around the bush. Don't expect someone else to snap you out of it. If you're going to do it: minimize the agony for those you leave behind, and stop the immature mind games.
This is on you, and if it isn't, you're doing it for entirely the wrong reasons.