The Real Monster
- Sep 26, 2021
Yes, in fact I like to inflict pain upon myself as I think that's the only thing I deserve.
I would rather be like someone else, so I definitely relate.Yes, and I often fantasise about being someone else, or rather myself but without the social awkwardness and with other added qualities as well, which as a result really makes me cringe and hate myself even more. I feel absolutely and utterly pathetic. Like a fucking waste of oxygen.
Self-sabotage has always been one of my strongest qualities. I always get hit with the: “But you look fine” and “Where’s the problem” :/Yes, and I believe anyone else can find a really good reason to hate me too if they tried. I really try my hardest to make sure other people hate me too though annoyingly, it doesn’t always work out and people don’t believe that I’m as bad as I say.