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Voldmort

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Sep 23, 2018
287
I'm avoiding everyone as I approach the ctb date. I did not want to have to make someone fall in love with me and have to leave her life suddenly. on the other hand, I feel that my time is running out, and that at least I would have the right to allow myself to have good experiences.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
You shouldn't enter into a new relationship if you're serious about ctb. That'll be an unnecessarily traumatic event for your partner.

There's one girl I still love, and I believe she'd be willing to forgive and forget everything if I reached out to her. But I won't do this, because I've decided to die unconditionally. She deserves a chance of happiness.
 
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Voldmort

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Sep 23, 2018
287
You shouldn't enter into a new relationship if you're serious about ctb. That'll be an unnecessarily traumatic event for your partner.

There's one girl I still love, and I believe she'd be willing to forgive and forget everything if I reached out to her. But I won't do this, because I've decided to die unconditionally. She deserves a chance of happiness.
yeah i know :(
 
onewayroad

onewayroad

“Dying is not a crime.” ― Jack Kevorkian
Oct 4, 2018
358
I've reached a strange point in my life where I feel satisfied with the relationships I've had and don't want any more. It's similar to the feeling of having eaten enough and no longer desiring food. Whenever I've been single in the past I've wished I had a girlfriend, so it's pretty weird.
 
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MKnight

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Oct 19, 2018
11
Go for it! Part of our journey is connecting with people. A lot of us that do want to ctb is because we can't establish a connection and feel so lonely. If you're able to I'd say dont hold back. Let your story keep unfolding and maybe it will make you feel like a new person in the process and change your outcome.
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
625
Go for it! Part of our journey is connecting with people. A lot of us that do want to ctb is because we can't establish a connection and feel so lonely. If you're able to I'd say dont hold back. Let your story keep unfolding and maybe it will make you feel like a new person in the process and change your outcome.

I'd use this advice with caution. This only works if the sole reason for OP wanting to ctb is loneliness/lack of a partner.

It would be very selfish if a person who is suicidal entered a relationship knowing his suicidal thoughts won't go away by said relationship and that he/she will inflict damage to the relationship because of suicidal tendencies. Or he/she should bring up the subject early on but then again they might not out of fear of ending the relationship but keep dragging the issues on further down the road.

If you are positive that a possible relationship is going to keep you from being suicidal for the remainder of the relationship or if you feel that this is isn't the end for you then by all means go for it.

If however you feel there is little or nothing that would change your thoughts i would tread carefully if you are concerned about other people's wellbeing.

Plenty of people with partners or even children have killed themselves ... It's not a pretty sight.

This is stuff that you need to think through .. and not just "omg yes go for it!" Without any second thought... For instance a stressfull job can have a huge impact on a relationship ... Same goes for someone severely depressed.
 
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MKnight

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Oct 19, 2018
11
I'd use this advice with caution. This only works if the sole reason for OP wanting to ctb is loneliness/lack of a partner.This is stuff that you need to think through .. and not just "omg yes go for it!" Without any second thought... For instance a stressfull job can have a huge impact on a relationship ... Same goes for someone severely depressed.

"omg yes go for it" >.> like I said it could change the outcome of the person wanting to ctb. Peoples minds change, its worth taking a risk. If youre worried about hurting the partner, that is something they will learn from and help them grow.
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
625
"omg yes go for it" >.> like I said it could change the outcome of the person wanting to ctb.

Yes it could i don't disagree. But i feel it's something to think about thoroughly before venturing into something.

If youre worried about hurting the partner, that is something they will learn from and help them grow.

They will both learn yeah probably but grow? Only if things work out yes. If it doesn't well i fear that it has more chance of bringing both down rather than grow.

Look i'm not saying don't do it. I simply point out that you should think about alot before going into a relationship in this state of mind.
 
Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
546
Unfortunately I do. And I have to walk with her today not knowing if we will quarrel or not. All my years spent with her are similar to walking on the mine field, my every step can be my last one. I hope I will ctb sooner or later and stop this painful cycle of life.
 
Gainax

Gainax

Experienced
Oct 8, 2018
266
No,
all i see is couples getting divorced and unhappy couples

most of the married women i know, got fatter after the having kids and don't appear to be much happy and are almost always irritated with something
most of the married men i know are always giving "fixed eye contact" to other women

so i assume the ones who reach my age and are still married they just do it for the kids and financial stability
 
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Idorus

Arcanist
Apr 30, 2018
423
All my relationships were drama. And you would think when becoming older, wiser, more humane, more sensitive and understanding and more fixed to go for it without leaving after the slightest friction, it would all change for the better. I can tell ya, after I got cancer (one of those accumulated major points in my life from which healed after surgery) I attracted the most inhumane, insensitive shit of my life. So that's where I am, to finally conclude I ain't born to be together.
 
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okyeah

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Jul 20, 2018
425
I've become a shut-in besides my work which I am potentially getting fired from soon.

I have no real friends except people who think I am their friend - when actually I have only done things with them to keep up an appearance of being normal. I actually hate them a lot. They treat me like shit and so I made sure to cut them out of my life.
 
BlackDragonof1989

BlackDragonof1989

Mage
Jul 12, 2018
526
I tend to have high drama relationships, only had a few go pretty peacefully but there weren't too many expectations nor demands on either side. Well, I am just remembering one like that. It was a wonderful time. All online, mind you. Offline the farthest I've ever gotten is I kissed a girl, but ended up running away as commitment has always scared me.
 
your pathologist

your pathologist

¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Sep 5, 2018
516
In a LDR
With a guy i fell into like with for his aesthetics... and ruined a relationship i had at the chance of that being more than just a fling.
6mo ago i left my fiance of 6 years, my HS sweetheart... i really regret doing it.
But i was always abusive towards him. I have anger and depression and im bipolar.
Told him and myself that i had to leave him so he could have a better life.
Somehow my brain couldnt comprehend when he actually did move on. Shes a sweet girl, and shes probably not going to do anything close to what i did to him.
God i miss him.