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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
724
I am a poet.

I write frequently, and I keep a collection of my work on a second computer of mine, and I have many of my works on a personal web server, in fact I keep most of my personal shit there. I just never share it. I would be willing to share individual pieces with someone I trust however.
 
Tomo

Tomo

Member
Oct 31, 2018
15
I used to write but I haven't done that in maybe 2 years now. Writing was a good way to express how I felt but all too often it left me feeling emptier than I did before when I took a moment to analyze my problems and put them into words. But I would still like to write again one day and maybe if there's enough interest on this forum we can share poems or short stories with each other.
 
Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
189
I used to write a lot of poetry but stopped writing a long time ago now. A couple got used as songs for black metal bands/musicians I was in contact with. I don't know if I still have the cd-rs anymore though since I threw away and deleted all the poetry I wrote, so I might of got rid of those as well.
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
"Blossom" by Dani Paradox

I often stop and ask myself,
"What am I fighting for?"
In my mind I'm trapped inside a room,
pounding on the door
Yet no one hears my screams and cries
Here all my desperation lies
I find myself scrambling on the floor

These nights are all so lonely
So cold and alone
I wish I had someone to hold me
and that I could call my own
A girl to love and treat me right
Who I can curl next to and sleep with at night
How nice it would be to feel at home

It's so hard for me to describe
The exquisite pain that I feel inside
I feel like I'm being dragged
out to sea by a rip tide
There's no swimming back to shore
and I just can't take any more
I wish there was somewhere that I could run and hide

There is no where, however
And I just can't get away
Thoughts and feelings chasing me
All throughout the day
Always lurking deep within
To remind me of the place I'm in
It's traumatizing to know that I'm here to stay

The power of a friendship
and the power of a loss
Believing what you think is right
and getting double crossed
It's all so funny, really
A neverending chain
My life has always been anything but plain

Always hiding behind a mask
and building a facade
Managing to make it through
but always feeling odd
It was strange to know the day would come
When things would feel right
A vision of my life as me came into my sight

And so it came to pass
That I would start anew
Although very lonely
With few to talk to
One day things will be different
As I can only hope
Or else my life will always have been nothing but a joke

The faith I have is blind
and maybe even false
A vision that's more promising
would be to stop my pulse
Yet, still I cling to the string of hope
and take it all some more
I often stop and ask myself, "What am I fighting for?"
 
Kirakishou

Kirakishou

where is the truth?
Nov 1, 2018
46
"Blossom" by Dani Paradox

I often stop and ask myself,
"What am I fighting for?"
In my mind I'm trapped inside a room,
pounding on the door
Yet no one hears my screams and cries
Here all my desperation lies
I find myself scrambling on the floor

These nights are all so lonely
So cold and alone
I wish I had someone to hold me
and that I could call my own
A girl to love and treat me right
Who I can curl next to and sleep with at night
How nice it would be to feel at home

It's so hard for me to describe
The exquisite pain that I feel inside
I feel like I'm being dragged
out to sea by a rip tide
There's no swimming back to shore
and I just can't take any more
I wish there was somewhere that I could run and hide

There is no where, however
And I just can't get away
Thoughts and feelings chasing me
All throughout the day
Always lurking deep within
To remind me of the place I'm in
It's traumatizing to know that I'm here to stay

The power of a friendship
and the power of a loss
Believing what you think is right
and getting double crossed
It's all so funny, really
A neverending chain
My life has always been anything but plain

Always hiding behind a mask
and building a facade
Managing to make it through
but always feeling odd
It was strange to know the day would come
When things would feel right
A vision of my life as me came into my sight

And so it came to pass
That I would start anew
Although very lonely
With few to talk to
One day things will be different
As I can only hope
Or else my life will always have been nothing but a joke

The faith I have is blind
and maybe even false
A vision that's more promising
would be to stop my pulse
Yet, still I cling to the string of hope
and take it all some more
I often stop and ask myself, "What am I fighting for?"
aww *hugs*
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
lol I haven't read any of these in so many years

"Love" by Dani Paradox

Love is real, love is gold
Sharing a love until you grow old
With each and every breath you take
To care and be there for her sake
With abrupt knowledge that it's there
Love is flowing in the air
Just like the beating of a drum
Only getting stronger since it's begun
For each and every single smile
I'd walk mile after mile
Putting all else on the line
Noticing sign after sign
That you're meant to be together
A bond built tougher than leather
Fate has planned things out to be
The way they are for you to see

Love is free, love is blind
Love is rare and hard to find
But once it's found it makes itself known
By dramatically increasing its very tone
The feelings of wonder that flutter within
Create a sense of security that's soon to begin
Once embraced it will come to anyone as a surprise
Enlightenment will finally open their eyes
It's impossible to describe what it's like to be in love
To say the least it's like being a bird flying above

Love is compassion, love is profound
Love is fun to be around
To have someone always be there by your side
To be open and always having nothing to hide
To care for someone and call them your own
When your lonely, being able to pick up the phone
A bond that is strengthening day by day
Despite some fights that seem to take it away
A bond that remains no matter what
Even if you feel as though you've been cut

True love is real and it lasts forever
Holding its composure through the stormy weather
True love is amazing and it never dies
It never becomes clouded by deceit and by lies
For every miniscule moment that seems to last an eternity
Feeling like you've been let loose and set free
Love is real and love is like gold
Sharing a love until you grow old
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
I cracked when I wrote this one lmao like 7 years ago. And I did exactly that. I crawled into a bottle and withered away hahaha wow you'd think I would have gotten help while it still made a difference instead of going about things the way that I did

"Life of My Own" by Dani Paradox

I used to have friends
I used to have fun
I used to be one crazy son of a gun
Drinking all night
Sleeping all day
Time passing by as I partied it away
The sex and the drugs
The music all night
The occasional stupid, drunken fight
Laughing about it during nights to come
Playing beer pong and taking shots of rum
All of our history
and the times that we'd share
Being there for each other to listen and care
I think of those days often
And how I miss them so
It really hurt me to watch them go
Now I'm all alone and I want to be drunk
I feel like I'm trapped and locked in a trunk
Soon I'll be legal and I can wither away
Crawl into a bottle and there I will stay
My friends might be gone and I might be alone
But I'll never forget the days
When I had a life of my own
 
Kirakishou

Kirakishou

where is the truth?
Nov 1, 2018
46
lol I haven't read any of these in so many years

"Love" by Dani Paradox

Love is real, love is gold
Sharing a love until you grow old
With each and every breath you take
To care and be there for her sake
With abrupt knowledge that it's there
Love is flowing in the air
Just like the beating of a drum
Only getting stronger since it's begun
For each and every single smile
I'd walk mile after mile
Putting all else on the line
Noticing sign after sign
That you're meant to be together
A bond built tougher than leather
Fate has planned things out to be
The way they are for you to see

Love is free, love is blind
Love is rare and hard to find
But once it's found it makes itself known
By dramatically increasing its very tone
The feelings of wonder that flutter within
Create a sense of security that's soon to begin
Once embraced it will come to anyone as a surprise
Enlightenment will finally open their eyes
It's impossible to describe what it's like to be in love
To say the least it's like being a bird flying above

Love is compassion, love is profound
Love is fun to be around
To have someone always be there by your side
To be open and always having nothing to hide
To care for someone and call them your own
When your lonely, being able to pick up the phone
A bond that is strengthening day by day
Despite some fights that seem to take it away
A bond that remains no matter what
Even if you feel as though you've been cut

True love is real and it lasts forever
Holding its composure through the stormy weather
True love is amazing and it never dies
It never becomes clouded by deceit and by lies
For every miniscule moment that seems to last an eternity
Feeling like you've been let loose and set free
Love is real and love is like gold
Sharing a love until you grow old
that's so beautiful, thank you so much for sharing ^^
 
ouvreyes

ouvreyes

シシ
Oct 7, 2018
133
Yeah, I write. But I go to school for writing, and since school is a big source of a lot of my grief, it’s made it hard to enjoy. It’s only recently that I’ve been able to write a piece for myself. Would love to hear your work (or anyone’s, for that matter)! It takes a lot of sadness to make a poet, and I don’t think anyone would argue that we have plenty of that here, haha.
 
Weeping Garbage Can

Weeping Garbage Can

ਕਿਰਪਾ ਕਰਕੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਭੁੱਲ ਜਾਓ ❤️
Oct 31, 2018
316
lol I haven't read any of these in so many years

"Love" by Dani Paradox

Love is real, love is gold
Sharing a love until you grow old
With each and every breath you take
To care and be there for her sake
With abrupt knowledge that it's there
Love is flowing in the air
Just like the beating of a drum
Only getting stronger since it's begun
For each and every single smile
I'd walk mile after mile
Putting all else on the line
Noticing sign after sign
That you're meant to be together
A bond built tougher than leather
Fate has planned things out to be
The way they are for you to see

Love is free, love is blind
Love is rare and hard to find
But once it's found it makes itself known
By dramatically increasing its very tone
The feelings of wonder that flutter within
Create a sense of security that's soon to begin
Once embraced it will come to anyone as a surprise
Enlightenment will finally open their eyes
It's impossible to describe what it's like to be in love
To say the least it's like being a bird flying above

Love is compassion, love is profound
Love is fun to be around
To have someone always be there by your side
To be open and always having nothing to hide
To care for someone and call them your own
When your lonely, being able to pick up the phone
A bond that is strengthening day by day
Despite some fights that seem to take it away
A bond that remains no matter what
Even if you feel as though you've been cut

True love is real and it lasts forever
Holding its composure through the stormy weather
True love is amazing and it never dies
It never becomes clouded by deceit and by lies
For every miniscule moment that seems to last an eternity
Feeling like you've been let loose and set free
Love is real and love is like gold
Sharing a love until you grow old
aww, this is so heartwarming to read, thanks for sharing! <3
 
Escargot Shorts

Escargot Shorts

Tears-of-a-Clown Ass Bitch
Sep 26, 2018
184
i've written a bunch of jokey folk songs -- a lot of them being like super lewd but that's me circa 2010 and prior, and even though my humor isn't any more sophisticated, it just doesn't come out in songs. i have songs written for friends' projects and for like internet compilations but nothing i'd put here because it'd be too easy to cross reference tbh. but still. i was going through my soundcloud and found a rap i made for a friend on his birthday about 5 years ago, that was wild, and i wrote someone a song for his bday this year. output is few and far between but i only do it when it strikes me and when it's fun.
 
The Blackangel

The Blackangel

Nyiach des uti nesi deh ahy.
Nov 3, 2018
209
I write a lot. I've written and finished 2 full length novels, 3 short stories, and a lot of unconventional poetry. I'm not published, and at the moment don't really have any plans on trying to get published. I like to write because in the worlds I create I'm god and can do whatever I want to people. I find it therapeutic. One weird thing is that I can't write lyrics at all. I've managed to write one song. But that's the only one. I just flat out can't write music for some fucked up reason.
 
AveryConure

AveryConure

Some idiot
May 11, 2018
438
eyes glazed of milky boredom

seen too much, experienced too little

struck with lupus, yellowed

i am sick, give me your apothecaries;

your health and your wealth


these little black dot birds have more

joy than me

glass shields them from my fate

the other Notables pass by

a zoo animal neglected


this pretend typhoid paralyzes my will

skin polka-dotted like a '40s whore

tongue-tied; mystified of what didn't happen

skies appear so blanche and bored to i

why am i the only one dying on these

few seconds?
 
Sharethepain

Sharethepain

We forge the chains we wear in life.
May 2, 2018
138
I do in fact, and I feel like the fuel for it is this angst we all share. It gives it a unique depth.
 
E

Essie

Student
Oct 20, 2018
100
One weird thing is that I can't write lyrics at all. I've managed to write one song. But that's the only one. I just flat out can't write music for some fucked up reason.

You and me both. Wonder why this is. I am a professional writer of all sorts of things from books to journalism, but for the life of me, I can't write even a semblance of a song. A child could do better than me, and I am serious.
 
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Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
546
I used to write pretty personal love poems to my gf. I wrote them when I felt... hmmm how is this feeling called again ? Ah ! Happiness
 
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