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where do you live?

  • city

    Votes: 30 51.7%
  • suburb

    Votes: 16 27.6%
  • village/countryside

    Votes: 12 20.7%

  • Total voters
    58
GodKnows

GodKnows

What lies ahead
Jun 28, 2018
119
I used to live in a big city in a foreign country and I felt completely invisible, like a ghost of some sort. I only knew my roommates and that's pretty much it. I didn't know any of my neighbors. I was spending most of my time in my room.

I'm probably moving back there for work. No idea how I'm mentally going to handle the loneliness.
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
1,573
I live in a city, I fucking hate the shit this is, people saysMadrid is beautiful, there is nothing beautiful here, is shitty and infernal. I hate tgis city exactly as much as I hate people who live here. I want to live in a quiet town, not here when people is rampagy as hell. I shit so much in them.
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
I used to live in a big city in a foreign country and I felt completely invisible, like a ghost of some sort. I only knew my roommates and that's pretty much it. I didn't know any of my neighbors. I was spending most of my time in my room.

I'm probably moving back there for work. No idea how I'm mentally going to handle the loneliness.


similar experience

ironically the city is the most loneliest place on earth imho
 
Sidestep

Sidestep

Student
Aug 15, 2018
128
I grew up in the suburbs so I really am not used to living in the city, I hate it. There's so many...people. I can't even walk into Walmart because there's so many people shouting and, no seriously why do people have to shout so much? My suburbs was rich old people towns so I miss the slow pace, the calmness. Everywhere was a lot cleaner and safer too. Here I feel like I'm in a frenzy of chaos.
 
FullFat

FullFat

^best order at Micky-D's ever
Apr 27, 2018
375
Suburb. I am so happy I don't live in a rural area. I think I'd somehow go even more insane than I already am. When I was going to school in Illinois, I gained a whole new perspective on the meth epidemic. If I lived in some of the towns I drove through, the feds would have to pry the drug from my cold, dead fingers. (Fuck, on that thought, maybe living there wouldn't be too bad then, eh?)
 
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FullFat

FullFat

^best order at Micky-D's ever
Apr 27, 2018
375
I grew up in the suburbs so I really am not used to living in the city, I hate it. There's so many...people. I can't even walk into Walmart because there's so many people shouting and, no seriously why do people have to shout so much? My suburbs was rich old people towns so I miss the slow pace, the calmness. Everywhere was a lot cleaner and safer too. Here I feel like I'm in a frenzy of chaos.
When I went to school, I legit drove to the other side of the town and did my Walmart shopping at 3AM to avoid people at the grocery store. Those were the good ol' days. If I also wanted to avoid professors and other grad students seeing me buy alcohol by the cart, that's neither here nor there.
 
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couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
i read once people who live in the city are more likely to develop mentall disorders/depression

the reason is that people in the city experience more stress (which can happen without noticeing like people who lived at a crowded and loud street, get used to the noise but still get stressed subconscious).

the stress is caused by a state of distance and closeness at the same time. on the one hand you are surrounded by a ton of people every day every minute. you see them. you hear them. you smell them.

but on the other hand you dont interact witj them. you dont know what they want. if they are friendly or dangerous. eg i maybe know 1/10 of the people who live in my house. and this state lf uncertantity keeps your brain and body alarmed.

and this cause stress bc its unnatural.

our brain hast changed since stoneage. in the stoneage you lived in a group of 30 people max. traveling around in an empty landscape. encountering with strangers barely happened.
 
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InaccessibleHour

InaccessibleHour

Student
Sep 1, 2018
143
I've always lived in a suburbs. The closest I've ever lived to the city was on the Eastside as a really young kid in a poor familg which wasnt far away from outside of town but wasn't too far away from downtown either. Ever since then and even as a baby I've lived near the outskirts of our town.

Have lived in this town all my life. Born and raised here, still live here to this day.
 
Tomasnil

Tomasnil

Mage
Apr 24, 2018
519
City
Grew up in a forest so i feel more comfortable
but back when i was still dating it seemd like not to many girls was intrested to go home to an alcoholic suicidal guy with mental heath issues ?????

Now city is just handy if im to hangover to drive to work
 
satou

satou

not yet
Sep 3, 2018
225
Spent about ten years living in a city with close to a million inhabitants (if immediate adjacent cities are included). I seriously doubt anyone I have met there in the last 5 years remembers my name.
Due to depression I moved back in with my parents in my home town. At least now my brain is rotting less because I'm occasionally having an actual conversation. Sometimes I feel that I should go out more, but I don't know where to go because there is fucking people and cars everywhere I go. No peace whatsoever.
 
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Helen Bach

Helen Bach

New Member
Sep 21, 2018
4
I'm in a big town but am looking to move 15 miles away from the street drinkers, lowlifes and dossers and rent a house in the forest. Would ideally like to do this with someone else to split costs and make it not total silent isolation.

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Pointlessabyss

Pointlessabyss

Impulse will takeover one day...
Sep 17, 2018
294
I live in a relatively small town and on the outskirts. We have some beautiful countryside here which I love going around for walks in.

Wonder if I moved to a remote location like Alaska or somewhere and lived off the land if I’d be happier than the burdens of our current society!
 
Escargot Shorts

Escargot Shorts

Tears-of-a-Clown Ass Bitch
Sep 26, 2018
184
I've lived in both. Currently in the city, which is something I've always wanted. I'm not in the thick of the downtown area and thankfully this is a place more spread out so it doesn't feel too clustered, even if the morning/afternoon traffic is massive garbage. I spent years growing up in rural areas, which while lovely, can be very disheartening and isolating and for a stretch lived in a small town when i was starting on my own. Everything closed at 9 except the gas station so I mostly lived on garbage around that time.