Of course I do. To never exist means to never suffer. Life is very pointless and unnecessary, there is no reason for me to exist and I certainly would have been better off never existing at all. We live in such a horrible, cruel and unfair world, one that I wish I never had to live in.
And I thought the dead who are already dead more fortunate than the living who are still alive. But better than both is he who has not yet been and has not seen the evil deeds that are done under the sun.
It's all I think about. Ironically my mom tried to kill me and herself when I was still an infant during her own ctb attempt. I survived that... and now I get to repeat the feat on my own some 37 years later. Lol.
1000% yes. I will never forgive my parents for bringing me into this world. I know their reasons for doing so were purely selfish after overhearing a conversation between my Dad and one of his friends when I was a kid.
I didn't think of it much back then, but he basically said he only wanted a son so he could use me as a piece of equipment. It certainly explains why he screamed like a drill instructor every time I messed up when trying to learn new things.
If he was the only person still in my life, I'd be saying goodbye and going on a camping trip right now.
I was an accidental pregnancy, and there was a point they could have ended it there. Whenever I think about it, I wish things had gone differently. Just the idea of having never existed is peaceful for a brief moment.