osako

osako

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
179
I’ve really come to terms with the fact that I am totally and completely alone.
I think this has helped me embrace my decision.
Everyone has their own lives to live. I can’t and won’t burden them with what’s going on with mine.
I refuse to allow my limitations hold anyone back from pursuing and fulfilling their lives and happiness.
 
Lauriso

Lauriso

Member
Jul 26, 2022
58
When I became depressed I expected my friends to be there and support me through the darkness. I was proved wrong. No one wants to be bothered by your pain.
OK, I exaggerate a little, some people listen and express compassion, but rarely does anyone check in or ask how I'm doing. Apart from my mom. Who sadly doesn't really understand.
 
foreverfalling

foreverfalling

Member
Jul 22, 2022
34
Yes I feel this way too. I never understood how conversation worked. It's just people taking turns making noises, but this somehow made people less lonely? I realised no one really cares about anyone else. Just ask yourself that question and you will understand. Everyone is busy trying to solve their own problems. Sometimes your problems may line up with someone else's, and you may feel some semblance of connection. But once it's over it becomes the same again, and once you realise this, there's no point sharing anything with anyone. It becomes a deep existential loneliness.
 
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Julgran

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,058
I’ve really come to terms with the fact that I am totally and completely alone.
I think this has helped me embrace my decision.
Everyone has their own lives to live. I can’t and won’t burden them with what’s going on with mine.
I refuse to allow my limitations hold anyone back from pursuing and fulfilling their lives and happiness.

If you have a reason to end your life, you seem to be of a healthy mindset. I don't mean to say that this alone sounds like a legitimate reason, but I'm not one to judge anyone, so my point is that it's honorable of you to not want to burden other people with your existence.
 
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HopefulButPrepared

HopefulButPrepared

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Jun 22, 2022
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It's just people taking turns making noises
that's funny! And I have that picture on my bedroom wall - it's funny because anyone who looks at it just thinks it's a beautiful picture of a plane at dusk, which couldn't be further from the truth - it's so sneaky, I love it!
 
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thundercat

Tired
Jan 3, 2021
10
I've been alone my whole life. When I was younger, I thought I had friends but they just enjoyed how much I cared for them. I will admit I made poor choices in choosing people to open up to. My parents are abusive, I've never been close to family. My dog passed last year.

Being alone largely doesn't bother me. It's the feeling of wasting all that time & emotion on awful people. Remembering how far i went to be there for anyone I cared about, meanwhile I was struggling horribly. Stuff like that.
 
osako

osako

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
179
I've been alone my whole life. When I was younger, I thought I had friends but they just enjoyed how much I cared for them. I will admit I made poor choices in choosing people to open up to. My parents are abusive, I've never been close to family. My dog passed last year.

Being alone largely doesn't bother me. It's the feeling of wasting all that time & emotion on awful people. Remembering how far i went to be there for anyone I cared about, meanwhile I was struggling horribly. Stuff like that.
I totally get you
I think that it’s better to be alone. I never really feel lonely personally. People can be very tiring.
Yes. I’ve grown comfortable being alone. I prefer it now.
 
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Guend

Member
Aug 4, 2022
21
I believe that people don't really understand what we are feeling until they are in the same situation. I tried to talk to someone but failed.
 
osako

osako

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
179
I believe that people don't really understand what we are feeling until they are in the same situation. I tried to talk to someone but failed.
If you’d like to talk, I’m here. I won’t take it personally if you don’t. Just want to let you know you have someone willing to listen. I don’t have any answers, but I do have an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on.
 
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Guend

Member
Aug 4, 2022
21
If you’d like to talk, I’m here. I won’t take it personally if you don’t. Just want to let you know you have someone willing to listen. I don’t have any answers, but I do have an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on.
thank you so much
 
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osako

osako

Everything all at once
Jul 30, 2022
179
When I became depressed I expected my friends to be there and support me through the darkness. I was proved wrong. No one wants to be bothered by your pain.
OK, I exaggerate a little, some people listen and express compassion, but rarely does anyone check in or ask how I'm doing. Apart from my mom. Who sadly doesn't really understand.
Just checking in on you. Big hugs.
 
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