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Greg

Greg

Student
Jun 30, 2018
188
I actually wouldn't mind an afterlife if it meant I can do what I want. Have complete control as a reward for dealing with the bullshit on this earth. Still even if their is nothing that's not so bad either. Plenty of nights I don't even dream, I just lay my head down, then all of sudden 10 hours have passed.

Its 4 seconds after I wake up I get really anxious/angry/depressed again
 
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Nofaith

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Sep 16, 2018
343
I actually wouldn't mind an afterlife if it meant I can do what I want. Have complete control as a reward for dealing with the bullshit on this earth. Still even if their is nothing that's not so bad either. Plenty of nights I don't even dream, I just lay my head down, then all of sudden 10 hours have passed.

Its 4 seconds after I wake up I get really anxious/angry/depressed again

10 hours wow! I dream and still wake up that way.
 
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ningaman151

Experienced
Jul 28, 2018
233
I actually wouldn't mind an afterlife if it meant I can do what I want. Have complete control as a reward for dealing with the bullshit on this earth. Still even if their is nothing that's not so bad either. Plenty of nights I don't even dream, I just lay my head down, then all of sudden 10 hours have passed.

Its 4 seconds after I wake up I get really anxious/angry/depressed again
You can't experience nothing, just how you can't experience not being born. You just aren't there. Speculations about death are pointless. The best you can do is see what findings about the universe come up within your lifetime.
 
Circles

Circles

There's a difference between existing and living.
Sep 3, 2018
1,717
Can't sleep right now for some fucking reason and I have to go to work in 2 hours. One of the many reasons why I wish there was a switch where you can just go to sleep whenever you feel like it. Fuck my life.
 
windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
368
Sleeping is the best, especially when dreams are positive. A couple of nights ago I had a dream where I was with really great people, and we were singing together. I felt so happy.

Waking up is a letdown :-/ on better days. On worse days, it is horrifying.
 
Justanotherconsumer

Justanotherconsumer

Paragon
Jul 9, 2018
974
Dreams really are whack ,i dreamed some little people were living in a closet and there was this strange octopus like creature in there with them, they were running a guilt trip on me because i wanted to take the octopus to the beach that was 100 feet away, finally i told the little people "well only if it wants to "

Where does a brain come up with this whack?
 
Kev

Kev

Student
Aug 18, 2018
124
I think everyone, especially people on this site, loves to sleep. I certainly do: sleeping is my favorite part of the day. Life however, in it's unyielding cruelty, has made it so that the times immediately before and after sleeping are some of my most miserable. Being in bed, in the dark, all by myself is a recipe for feeling unbelievable loneliness and for contemplating all the things I hate about myself and how much I've fucked things up. Every night I lay in bed for an hour feeling so low and miserable (which kinda helps me sleep because at this point all I want to be is dead or at least unconscious), before eventually crying myself to sleep. And of course, like many of you here, waking up is a daily tragedy that I suffer. Usually my first thoughts of the day will consist of something like "I wish I had died in my sleep", or "There's no reason for me to live another day". Today it was "I don't enjoy existing". After that I'll lie in bed, alone, for an hour or two (or as long as I possibly can without missing an obligation like class) under the sheets, clutching my pillows, feeling miserable and just trying to shut out the world, trying to avoid having to experience another day of life for as long as possible.

Sleeping itself, however, is fucking amazing. When I sleep, I don't think about my problems, I don't feel depressed or lonely, I don't hate myself -- I am just in total peace and comfort. I see sleep as a free trial for death, and seeing as how amazing the free trial is, it makes me very eager to move on to the real deal.
 
Mugara

Mugara

if i count to ten, will it all go away?
Sep 12, 2018
40
Sleeping is no more an escape for me. I wake up at 10am every morning for a week and I can't help it somehow. My real life problems also aren't going anywhere while I'm asleep, they appear in my dreams but in very exaggerated way.
If I had less painful wakening I could maybe enjoy sleep.
 
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406blue

Specialist
Sep 7, 2018
379
The 5 minutes before heading off to bed are the happiest moments, knowing that conscious life will be alleviated for a while. Waking up is a bummer. I used to dream quite often, some pleasant some not, but lately there's just oblivion, which might be for the best. With all the medications available, it's a pity there isn't one that at least gives us happy, memorable dreams at least.
 
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deflagrat

deflagrat

¡Si hablas español mándame un mensaje privado!
Apr 9, 2018
360
Sleeping is part of my new plan to end my usual boredom. I usually sleep like 12 hours but I wish it were 20. I have an appointment with my psych in a few days to see if he can give me medication to sleep in order to achieve my goal. I used to be hyped about lucid dreaming but I have a hard time remembering my dreams. A pity, because it's something I would have enjoyed.
 
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samhelloall9

Experienced
Jul 16, 2018
297
I actually wouldn't mind an afterlife if it meant I can do what I want. Have complete control as a reward for dealing with the bullshit on this earth. Still even if their is nothing that's not so bad either. Plenty of nights I don't even dream, I just lay my head down, then all of sudden 10 hours have passed.

Its 4 seconds after I wake up I get really anxious/angry/depressed again
@Greg i love sleeping. I average 9-10 hours. I'm under-employed and I hope it doesn't change as it would really screw my eventual CTB planning and scheduling in a time and date if I was working more. Or whatever.

I love to sleep, as it passes most of my days, as I just want time to pass faster, I'm already not getting any younger.