FallenStar

FallenStar

I'm tired of my existence.
Oct 23, 2021
118
Does anyone else think that when you cbt people close to you will feel relief? maybe sad but deep down they will feel that a weight has been lifted from them and soon they will be happy again. I think that in my case it is, and sometimes my SI makes me think otherwise, but deep down I know that my mom will feel relief, every day it is more difficult to live for me and the best thing is to do it as quickly as possible, how can I avoid this kind of SI?
 
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Julgran

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
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Does anyone else think that when you cbt people close to you will feel relief? maybe sad but deep down they will feel that a weight has been lifted from them and soon they will be happy again. I think that in my case it is, and sometimes my SI makes me think otherwise, but deep down I know that my mom will feel relief, every day it is more difficult to live for me and the best thing is to do it as quickly as possible, how can I avoid this kind of SI?

You are probably right.

Knowing and worrying for a suicidal person is probably worse than the grief that follows after a successful suicide attempt.
 
ineverlived

ineverlived

Member
May 31, 2022
48
only my father and mom. others will be surprised, but I don't think they will be too upset. It's a big problem for me to upset my parents. but recently a close friend of my mother died, she mourned for 2-3 days, but after a while she forgot. Of course, it's not the same as losing your child, but I hope it will be like that after my death. Whoever you are, no matter how loved you are, life will go on somehow. (i hope).
 
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Gaga786

Member
May 3, 2020
77
For sure!! I can just imagine everyone celebrating my death by having a huge feast. All of my bullies and people that have hurt me would surely be invited. I can just imagine how happy people would feel when the loser, nuisance and parasite is sucked out of their lives
 
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noname223

Visionary
Aug 18, 2020
2,573
You are probably right.

Knowing and worrying for a suicidal person is probably worse than the grief that follows after a successful suicide attempt.
Personally I doubt that a lot. But that is just my opinion.
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
799
No, my step-mother(who's known me 46 years) and female cousin(who's known me all my life)will not feel relief when I CTB, they will be in shock
 
want2dienow

want2dienow

Atari hazure?
Jul 24, 2022
216
yes he tells me to just do it while SH. im very annoyance, with all my chronic of course. but i stay in my place. he tells they were right i am just a
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,354
I don't think so. I think they will be devastated.
 
FinalFrontier

FinalFrontier

New Member
May 18, 2021
1
A mixture of relief and devastation I'm sure. I have been a burden far to long for there not to be a sense of relief from the constant worrying. All I can hope for is no one follows as a result.
 
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betternever2havbeen

Experienced
Jun 19, 2022
249
I think my mother should feel relief but in reality no she probably wont see it like that.
 
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outatime_85

Specialist
May 17, 2022
300
I was written off as a mistake a long time ago, so all my family is doing is just waiting for the call telling them my demons won, so they can make the arrangements.

I highly doubt any of them will be devastated or upset over my demise.

They might feel some peace and relief since they would no longer have to pretend to care.
 
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Guend

Member
Aug 4, 2022
21
I think it will be traumatic for my family and for some people. But also a relief for others
 
TheDoomedDoomer

TheDoomedDoomer

Eternal sleep awaits me
May 22, 2022
128
At first I think the grief will set in hard for my mom and possibly my brother. But the thing is they know why I feel the way I do and that just don't care. They don't want me to leave and have tried to stop me in the past but also they don't want me around cause of how I am. I think it'll be tough at first but after a few months maybe a year it'll be a lot easier on them. It'll probably feel like I wasn't ever there to begin with and they'll just pretend I didn't exist and never discuss me cause of how troubled I was.
 
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Coffeebean77

Well… I tried.
Jul 28, 2022
40
My family will be shaken, but at the same time I feel like an emotional burden on my mom. They’ve also had warnings because of my previous attempts. I may be rationalizing but those are true.
 
Xocoyotzin

Xocoyotzin

Member
Aug 2, 2018
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I'm afraid of how it would affect my mother
I think on a deep primal level it might leave an irreparable wound
but I also believe she would secretly be relieved, maybe even glad, and I hope that reason would win over instinct
I've willingly been a burden on her for so long and it's incredibly wrong
ironically not wanting to affect her was the reason I've been holding off for so long but that was a mistake, even if it's painful it would've been the right thing to do and that becomes more clear with time
I'm hoping it will be a long exhale and a celebration for everyone, I can't think of anyone for whom it wouldn't
I'm tired of being that person too