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loser41

loser41

Dangerous
Oct 17, 2018
61
For me it's one of the few things I actually like about myself. I don't know why, but I think they're beautiful. I have cuts up and down my arm and just want more of them. they aren't incredibly deep, but they were deep enough to scar and show up if my arm gets even a little tan. Does anyone else genuinely enjoy their scars? What are yours from?
 
worldexploder

worldexploder

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Sep 19, 2018
2,823
I only have one. It was in Sep 2017 after I found out my aunt went to every gun shop in town and told them not to sale me a firearm. I wanted to CTB with a 12 gauge. I carved a large X into my upper arm. First and last time I ever did anything like that. Still got the pictures.
 
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For me it's one of the few things I actually like about myself. I don't know why, but I think they're beautiful. I have cuts up and down my arm and just want more of them. they aren't incredibly deep, but they were deep enough to scar and show up if my arm gets even a little tan. Does anyone else genuinely enjoy their scars? What are yours from?

My scars are from surgeries. They're on a part of my body I used to appreciate, back when I appreciated my body.

Lately, when my mind starts really going off the rails, I've been fantasizing about giving myself little puncture wounds with the tip of a chef's knife. I've never been a cutter, but this idea has been running through my head more and more. Not as a method, but as a distraction from the pain in my mind.
 
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Dog Food

Dog Food

POS
Mar 27, 2018
143
I have them on my thighs. It calms me running my hands over them when I'm upset. They're in perfect lines.
However, the scars on my wrist from when I was a teenager upset me a bit, because they're obvious in social situations.
 
loser41

loser41

Dangerous
Oct 17, 2018
61
I have them on my thighs. It calms me running my hands over them when I'm upset. They're in perfect lines.
However, the scars on my wrist from when I was a teenager upset me a bit, because they're obvious in social situations.
thats exactly what i do, but as long as they aren't fresh i don't care who sees them.

I like mine. I wish I had more. I just wish I had the opportunity to cut myself more. I haven't for months.
same. i don't have enough hoodies to wear a different one everyday, so cutting is hard. not only that, but i live in a dorm with another person, so i have to wear a hoodie at all times when they're fresh.
 
RottingFlowerBrains

RottingFlowerBrains

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Sep 10, 2018
193
I havnt cut myself in a while, i find it pointless now. It only increases how horrible my skin is. All these thick red and white scars its disgusting to me, i call it my skin condition and never get it out. I cant look people in the eyes when they can see all the horrible gaping scars
. It makes me feel like a monster for doing it to myself. Im very insecure
 
Lil_Intro_Vert

Lil_Intro_Vert

she/they
Oct 15, 2018
195
For me it's one of the few things I actually like about myself. I don't know why, but I think they're beautiful. I have cuts up and down my arm and just want more of them. they aren't incredibly deep, but they were deep enough to scar and show up if my arm gets even a little tan. Does anyone else genuinely enjoy their scars? What are yours from?
I feel the same, although mine are on my thigh cause I don't want anyone to see em lol. Idk why I started, I've never understood it in the past or had a strong desire to, but one day I was just like "do it" and I found I liked seeing the lines of red on me, it's weirdly satisfying. I wouldn't call myself a masochist cause I usually hate pain so idk why I do it exactly but I'm not stopping any time soon
 
stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,845
For me it's one of the few things I actually like about myself. I don't know why, but I think they're beautiful. I have cuts up and down my arm and just want more of them. they aren't incredibly deep, but they were deep enough to scar and show up if my arm gets even a little tan. Does anyone else genuinely enjoy their scars? What are yours from?

I hate them and would like to cover them with tattoos if I chose to live.
 
BeautifulBarbie4892

BeautifulBarbie4892

Member
Oct 24, 2018
39
I love mine. I have scars hidden on my feet and upper legs, one on my wrist. But the noticeably deep scars are below my belly button and I love all my scars. I was just about to make more now, I’m starting to want to show people my scars from self harm
 
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JJ-NOHOPE

JJ-NOHOPE

Tantalus - all desire, no hope
Nov 26, 2018
119
I love them. They are “eloquent “ in a way that speech isn’t.

My left forearm looks like a bear mauled it.

However.... if I do decide to live and get a job again it will be very awkward.

But I hope to be never ashamed of them. They are a part of me.
 
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NotWorthLiving

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2018
1,265
Most of mine are hidden but I still love them. Like they're under my shirt and shorts so people can't see them but I do have some really faded ones on my legs which I'm still proud of.
 
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GhostedToast

GhostedToast

Wants to disappear
Sep 25, 2018
145
I've grown to accept them and be alright about them being on my body. But as for love i can't say I've grown to love them. They're just whats left of something i did
 
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TheCrow

TheCrow

Invisible Spirit
Sep 26, 2018
802
I have them all over my left wrist, left ankle, and a little on my right ankle, even though I did it 20 years ago. I wish I didn’t do it. I have to be so cautious when leaning my face on my left hand when people I’m not close to are sitting across from me, or when I’m sitting Indian-style. People are so quick to be wide-eyed and write you off as “crazy,” and I don’t want to give them the opportunity to assess me.
 
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LiveSlowDieFast

LiveSlowDieFast

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Nov 14, 2018
340
I don't have many thankfully. To me it's like if I don't really feel alive or I feel out of control, then looking at them reaffirms that there is something I can affect and influence if that makes sense.
 
Stillnotsure

Stillnotsure

Experienced
Dec 18, 2018
243
Do tattoos count? I feel so, grounded when I’m getting one done, trying to master the pain of them carving into my skin.
 
FailureGirl

FailureGirl

Member
Jul 5, 2021
59
When I first started cutting to cope with my depression I was 15 and ashamed and scared of people finding out, by the time I hit 20 I still felt shame when people saw my scars so I still sometimes hid them and I definitely hid any new cuts but at the same time I began seeing the beauty in them and now almost 10 years later I carve beautiful straight lines and admire the scars they leave.
 
nex

nex

Student
May 3, 2021
155
I wish I didn't have mine because I don't want people to wonder and/or ask. Cutting myself didn't do anything for me so the scars are pointless. Given the choice, I'd undo them.
 
sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
727
i used to be ashamed of them, now i just don't care. but no definitely don't "love" them
 
narval

narval

Mage
Jan 22, 2020
549
I've a little scar of a (intended) cut in my left arm. I doesn't think too much about it, but i don't dislike it.
Also i've a scar with triangle form in one of my fingers (left hand). It was a little accident, nothing important. The scar is little and was a surprise but i like it