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ForestDuck

ForestDuck

Member
Jul 11, 2018
45
I don't know if it's just me, but everytime I smoke weed, my mind doesn't think about suicide, in fact I barely think at all. Only con about this is I'm already depressed and weed affects your brain cells - so retaining information at work is the only downfall. Weed has kept me alive for this long, I know the moment I quit, I will demise.. Anyone else have an opinion on this?
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Weed made me what I am today, socially anxious paranoid mess, I quit and went back to it too many times. Benzos helped but the withdrawals have ruined me to another level. I did have smoke last night, and to be honest, it was actually nice. Usually it makes me an anxious wreck. But it was nice to not feel like shit for an evening.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
I used to smoke tons of weed, thc oil all day everyday, now I cant, it gives me anxiety to a whole new level.
Same here, it ruined me, too many times, I did have a smoke last night, and for once I actually enjoyed it. It was a TINY amount, in a filtered roll up, basically dust, but it didn't actually mess with me.
 
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Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
638
Not in my case, unfortunately. I had looked forward to trying it for years, but once I finally got my hands on some the effects it had on me were...rather divisive to say the least. While the warped perception and strange thoughts/visions that flashed through my mind were all somewhat novel for a time, the anxiety, paranoia, and overall panic that permeated the entire experience made it an absolute nightmare to get through. Not only that, but in the weeks/months afterwards of my first (& only) "trip" I suffered from intense, deeply unpleasant bouts of derealization, which the THC had triggered. At this point, I highly doubt I'll take any ever again. Can't say I was too surprised by the outcome, frankly. After all, nothing ever works for me. Story of my fucking life. Although, I've always found it hilarious how, from what I've read/heard anyway, most people out there don't even recommend that someone with "pre-existing mental health conditions" (like basic anxiety or depression, for instance) should even go near marijuana, or most other popular drugs for that matter. So, in other words, you should "ideally" only use them if you're already a well adjusted human being. To which I say, are you fucking serious? The people who could use these kinds of things the most shouldn't or, depending on their physiology, can't even use them, whereas some brainless partying moron who hasn't suffered an ounce of emotional/mental pain in their entire life and, consequently, needs them the least, is paradoxically perfectly suited to use them. If you're happy you should use them. If you're not, you shouldn't. So basically someone like me is irredeemably fucked in such an infuriating equation. Great. Superb. Wonderful. I swear to god man, this planet is a bad fucking joke and I'm always the punchline. Fuck you, Terrence McKenna. Fuck you, Bill Hicks. Fuck you, Hunter S. Thompshon. Take all your worthless drugs and shove them up your cold dead asses. Also, fuck you too Joe Rogan. Fucking meat headed prick that he is, singing the praises of drugs whenever he can (despite being completely oblivious/ignorant, to the profoundly negative effects they can have on others). Really never liked him either way, so whatever.

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Soon4me

Soon4me

Enlightened
Jun 15, 2018
1,591
Yes it does and that's why it's illegal in most countries.
Government control,and possibly something to do with aliens also.

While i visited Holland on holidays i tried a low THC/high CBD strain
I found it very relaxing.No paranoia.
The weed i buy in my country is very high in THC And low in CBD.
I can only use small amounts of this or i get very paranoid.

I would like to live in a country where it was legal.
Then i could buy what strenght/strain i wanted.

Also when i buy it in my country,i have no idea of strenght even when i buy from same dealer each time.
So it's just finding the right strain/strenght for me anyway.
 
ForestDuck

ForestDuck

Member
Jul 11, 2018
45
Weed made me what I am today, socially anxious paranoid mess, I quit and went back to it too many times. Benzos helped but the withdrawals have ruined me to another level. I did have smoke last night, and to be honest, it was actually nice. Usually it makes me an anxious wreck. But it was nice to not feel like shit for an evening.

It might be due to the weed you smoked, I get some bad trips from thc oils, but when I smoke something I'm familiar with - (Where I live we only have flavours) it's fine. But I rely on it as a night cap otherwise I won't be able to sleep. Been the same case since I became depressed. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel anymore, I guess my days are coming to an end.
 
ForestDuck

ForestDuck

Member
Jul 11, 2018
45
Yes it does and that's why it's illegal in most countries.
Government control,and possibly something to do with aliens also.

While i visited Holland on holidays i tried a low THC/high CBD strain
I found it very relaxing.No paranoia.
The weed i buy in my country is very high in THC And low in CBD.
I can only use small amounts of this or i get very paranoid.

I would like to live in a country where it was legal.
Then i could buy what strenght/strain i wanted.

Also when i buy it in my country,i have no idea of strenght even when i buy from same dealer each time.
So it's just finding the right strain/strenght for me anyway.

It's funny you should mention aliens, as I've encountered many peeple that have stated the same thing and come out with rather strange looking scars after they've smoked it. But yeah I get what you mean, they should decrimonlise it like they have in most US states and the Netherlands.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
It might be due to the weed you smoked, I get some bad trips from thc oils, but when I smoke something I'm familiar with - (Where I live we only have flavours) it's fine. But I rely on it as a night cap otherwise I won't be able to sleep. Been the same case since I became depressed. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel anymore, I guess my days are coming to an end.
Oh for sure, like soon4me said, if I could choose which strain, high CBD low THC I'm sure I would be fine. But alas, no such choice, if it smell absolutely stonking, then chances are it's gonna ruin me.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
I wouldn't play too hard with drugs.

I lived that life. I wouldn't do that again.
What's it matter? Gonna CTB anyway, might as well try and enjoy the last days in this hell. Go full throttle and possibly od, save me planning and worrying about it.
And I know I'm not trying to live to a ripe old age with a healthy body and mind, if I could get them, I'd be more than happy.
 
Jon86

Jon86

Specialist
Apr 9, 2018
369
I used to smoke tons of weed, thc oil all day everyday, now I cant, it gives me anxiety to a whole new level.

I used to smoke socially growing up without issue.

Nowadays, I get paranoia and intense anxiety. Some of the scariest moments of my life were on weed thinking about my suicidal ideations. I know people say its not addicting but if I have any around i'll smoke it everyday until it's done, even with the negative side effects.
 
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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
724
What's it matter? Gonna CTB anyway, might as well try and enjoy the last days in this hell. Go full throttle and possibly od, save me planning and worrying about it.
And I know I'm not trying to live to a ripe old age with a healthy body and mind, if I could get them, I'd be more than happy.

I mean. You can. I'm just trying to save people from possibly having extremely fucked up experiences from drugs.
 
BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
I mean. You can. I'm just trying to save people from possibly having extremely fucked up experiences from drugs.
What type of experiences? Surely being in this state of mind is the most fucked up experience?
 
BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
Oh ho-ho. Have you ever had truly bad psychedelic trip?
Haha, I thought that would be your answer! Only one. There's still plenty of other drugs out there though, and like I said, if your gonna CTB, then a bad trip will probably give you more reason too!
 
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Inertia

Member
May 24, 2018
18
Weed definitely helps slow down my brain when I'm feeling overwhelmed and I generally have fewer suicidal thoughts when I'm stoned. I keep it limited to smoking a bit in the evening generally, and the relative calm that come with it gives me something to look forward to. I smoke high THC blends generally, but also have a CBD oil that has very low THC and it helps without giving the narcotic effects (e.g., I'm perfectly fine to drive after using the oil, but wouldn't dream of driving after smoking).

I've definitely had paranoid thoughts when I've smoked too much, but I generally stay well under that limit.
 
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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
724
I mean. If you're not taking psychedelic substances (Cannabis is a psychedelic), life is going to be temporarily more fun/enjoyable until you run out of those substances.

I used to do all sorts of non-psychedelic substances and spend nights shitposting. The result now is that I don't do all sorts of non-psychedelic substances, and I still spend my night shitposting. So I can't say that I regret those evenings.
 
PsychoPyro

PsychoPyro

Chronic Pain
Jun 7, 2018
102
Weed helps my chronic pain so I need it.