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Apr 27, 2018
Work is good for me ... construction is a work out ... being paid to go to the gym kind of thing .

The toxic bullies ruin it .

The hours can be soul destroying though .

edit to add :

not working for two to three years ( I'm in denial )
Fucked my opportunities up having relapses into paranoid OCD borderline bipolar self hating blah blah

I enshrined the last little shit bully onto a pedestal of divine proportions .
TRANSFERENCE I guess ... knowing what it is makes it SO much easier to deal with ... yeah right /s.
( just a small town red neck victim who hated my guts )

He just wanted to make love to me with his fists ( violence bonding )

"Go into town on a saturday night and have a fight " ( loosely quoting his idea of a good time )

What a sad fuck.

( Proudly telling me he's having another (third ?) child .

Satan is most def. the god of this world .

Haven' really got over it yet , if you haven't noticed ...

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Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
Working helps a little. It keeps my mind occupied for 8 hours a day. Also the place I worked at was a very fun and awesome place.

However, I'm unemployed now because it was a temporary contract...so yeah. Ctb and SS 24/7.
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Impulse will takeover one day...
Sep 17, 2018
Personally there is no difference for me, it can be a nice distractition if I get something which peaks my interest but this only lasts for a few hours. Other than that I’m disconnected during my working hours and am only there to get paid, But the money funds my habits these days so suppose I’d struggle without it...

On the other hand I’ve had stints of being unemployed and was probably more content in myself stayinf in bed playing games etc.

Either way my thoughts / feelings have remained the same. I think I found unemployment less stressful as I didn’t have to put on a mask each day and have any obligations to meet.


Aug 31, 2018
It differs. Sometimes it helps. It feels good to earn my own money. Sometimes I actually enjoy my work. But sometimes it’s stressful and only makes things worse.
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Aug 4, 2018
Work gets me out of bed and out of the house. On my days off work I spend most of the day (until evening) sleeping.

Whether it helps me or not I don't know. I just know it keeps me looking normal around everyone else.
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