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typx

Specialist
May 4, 2018
381
Sometimes I make the terrible mistake of scrolling through Facebook and get to see people I’ve known throughout my life doing things and growing and changing. It’s such a miserable experience. It feels like I stayed in one place while they all moved on with their lives. It makes me regret so many of the things I’ve done throughout my life and mourn the times I’ve had in the past when I was so ignorant of the destruction I was bringing on myself. It becomes so obvious that I was the problem, not them. If they were the problem then why am I the one that’s alone?
 
Zanexx

Zanexx

Dead
Jul 15, 2018
190
I can relate to this so much. I'm not feeling able to go on Facebook anymore, but when I used to go on I would often look up people I'd known in the past or gone to school with and feel bad about how they were getting married, having kids, having jobs, going out with their friends and living normal lives while I stagnated. I feel this even more intensely now because my life has become a rock bottom level of pathetic.
 
Smilla

Smilla

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Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Sometimes I make the terrible mistake of scrolling through Facebook and get to see people I’ve known throughout my life doing things and growing and changing. It’s such a miserable experience. It feels like I stayed in one place while they all moved on with their lives. It makes me regret so many of the things I’ve done throughout my life and mourn the times I’ve had in the past when I was so ignorant of the destruction I was bringing on myself. It becomes so obvious that I was the problem, not them. If they were the problem then why am I the one that’s alone?

If it’s any consolation I know some people who are coupled up and not very nice people. Lots of them. Think of the popular kids in high school—generally they weren’t very nice people just adept at navigating the social scene, often aggressively so.

People are together for all sorts of reasons, including convenience, mutual dependency, kids, etc.

I know one guy who posts his happy family photos all over social media but cheats on his wife—the only reason he hasn’t left her is because of finances.

Facebook is shallow anyway, stay off there.
 
Zanexx

Zanexx

Dead
Jul 15, 2018
190
If it’s any consolation I know some people who are coupled up and not very nice people. Lots of them. Think of the popular kids in high school—generally they weren’t very nice people just adept at navigating the social scene, often aggressively so.

People are together for all sorts of reasons, including convenience, mutual dependency, etc.
Unfortunately the not very nice people, the popular kids in high school, are the ones still navigating the soci(et)al scene and living their lives.

I don't know if they're happy, but they're probably happier than me, given most of them don't seem to feel like they have to leave imminently.
 
Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,786
I used to be a facebook fanatic. But since my major downfall a few years ago, I rarely get on it anymore.

I hate scrolling down my wall and seeing how I used to be, how I was able to interact with people online. But it's no longer fun to interact with anyone, online, or in real life.
 
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typx

Specialist
May 4, 2018
381
I used to be a facebook fanatic. But since my major downfall a few years ago, I rarely get on it anymore.

I hate scrolling down my wall and seeing how I used to be, how I was able to interact with people online. But it's no longer fun to interact with anyone, online, or in real life.

Yeah, I look at those photos and just can’t believe how far away I from that person in the photo. Are we even the same person? For all intents and purposes, I don’t think we are.
 
Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,786
Yeah, I look at those photos and just can’t believe how far away I from that person in the photo. Are we even the same person? For all intents and purposes, I don’t think we are.
Yep. I hate it... I can't believe the person in the picture is even me. I have to keep asking myself what happened to that person. What went wrong that he's no longer himself?

I been dealing with my depression and anxiety for 30+ years. I'm surprised I was even able to communicate that way. I guess because it was online, and not face to face.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
I have two facebooks one with my old friends and people I used to know and my newer one for talking to new people and stuff. I don’t feel I’m the same person and I barely go on my old one therefor I don’t see their updates or anything.
 
Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,786
Facebook is definitely full of people just showing the best parts of their lives.. everyone suffers.. even the popular.. but at least they have lives to show.

The last couple days on facebook, I became silent, and posting dark things, death, cemeteries, quotes, etc..... People started asking me to many questions, and I stayed off of it since then.
 
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typx

Specialist
May 4, 2018
381
The last couple days on facebook, I became silent, and posting dark things, death, cemeteries, quotes, etc..... People started asking me to many questions, and I stayed off of it since then.
Hah.. yeah I post a lot of weird stuff on there. The last two years you can really chart my downfall via my FB
 
Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,786
Hah.. yeah I post a lot of weird stuff on there. The last two years you can really chart my downfall via my FB

Facebook should create a chart that shows how mental a user has become over the years. Mine would probably go from already low, to the depths of hell.
 
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boozlepuzzle

Member
Aug 14, 2018
27
I have this same problem with Instagram, where everyone pretends to have a perfect life, I used to feel bad for knowing something was wrong with me that I couldn't be like them (I think it's called fomo fear of missing out) but now that I'm certain I'm going to ctb, looking at these people I'm a bit glad that outside my little sad world there are "happy" people and that they will continue on existing on their illusion after I die
 
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ge0rge

ge0rge

the satanic mechanic
Jul 29, 2018
295
I unfollow people immediately after we become friends on facebook, unless we're really close, or unless all they post is dank memes and/or music. If you post one picture from your holiday in Prague, I'm unfollowing you. And I turn my chat off for that specific person, so I'm not tempted to click on their profile.

Magic.
 
Nzbeelover

Nzbeelover

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Jul 1, 2018
100
If it’s any consolation I know some people who are coupled up and not very nice people. Lots of them. Think of the popular kids in high school—generally they weren’t very nice people just adept at navigating the social scene, often aggressively so.

People are together for all sorts of reasons, including convenience, mutual dependency, kids, etc.

I know one guy who posts his happy family photos all over social media but cheats on his wife—the only reason he hasn’t left her is because of finances.

Facebook is shallow anyway, stay off there.
Everybodys life ia romanticized on social.media.. its easy to make out everytbinf is incredible n succesful etc bt nothing is ever as it seems..
 
stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,845
Social media is toxic and a false representation of reality. Some folks put on the perfect fronts, and behind that everything is in complete turmoil.
 
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KingoftheFreaks

Member
Nov 21, 2020
18
Sometimes I make the terrible mistake of scrolling through Facebook and get to see people I’ve known throughout my life doing things and growing and changing. It’s such a miserable experience. It feels like I stayed in one place while they all moved on with their lives. It makes me regret so many of the things I’ve done throughout my life and mourn the times I’ve had in the past when I was so ignorant of the destruction I was bringing on myself. It becomes so obvious that I was the problem, not them. If they were the problem then why am I the one that’s alone?
Most people who are happy are terrible people. This is a world that rewards mean and single mindedness rather than kindness
 
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