Attempted suicide and failed?

  • Yes

    Votes: 38 58.5%
  • No

    Votes: 27 41.5%

  • Total voters
    65
Oblivion

Oblivion

Arcanist
Aug 2, 2018
406
Who here has attempted suicide and failed?
 
Smilla

Smilla

-
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Tylenlol overdose at 13. Stomach pumped.

Plastic bag method sans gas at 20 with lots of OTC sleeping aids. Suffocating feeling was immense so I ripped bag off at last minute.
 
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Deleted_9cKnXB34QG

Mage
Jun 26, 2018
501
I’ve never attempted it before. I want my first attempt to also be my last one. It’s probably why I’ve been delaying it for so long. I want absolute certainty, which isn’t easy.

Same, I'm researching my method and planning every single detail. My worst nightmare is failing, getting locked up in psych ward or worse - ending up with brain damage.
 
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shadow11

Wizard
Jul 31, 2018
620
A long time between drinks. You did well to hold it together for the intervening period - was it all smooth sailing?
Smooth until 2 years ago then everything fell apart now they have me on an antipsychotic that is killing me and I've tried to get off but I cant. Cant even leave my house. My body and soul are so tired, I'm afraid to live and afraid to die but I must get out of this hell.
 
DF90

DF90

Experienced
Mar 18, 2018
275
Got 13 attempts. Most from ages 15 to 18. All impulsive and not researched. Next time I attempt I don't think I will fail, though I am trying to make life better at the moment.
 
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BurningLights

BurningLights

He killed himself with his own mind
Jul 2, 2018
709
4 attempts.
3 ods and 1 half assed hanging attempt. If there is a reason I'm still on this planet I would like to know, if not, just let me fucking die...
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
1,573
Got 13 attempts. Most from ages 15 to 18. All impulsive and not researched. Next time I attempt I don't think I will fail, though I am trying to make life better at the moment.
I never could be able to try it in that age, I was so scared... In fact, now when I'm over the legal age I still think I couldn't do it. How did you find the way of doing them? How did you ignore the fear? Maybe you were very anxious in that moment?
 
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Comatose11

Mage
Jul 26, 2018
576
I first attempted suicide at 13. I overdosed a few times and also tried partial suspension hanging. I'm going with full suspension hanging and did a lot of research to make sure I get the right rope and everything. I will also be making sure it is done while I am the only one at home.
 
DF90

DF90

Experienced
Mar 18, 2018
275
I never could be able to try it in that age, I was so scared... In fact, now when I'm over the legal age I still think I couldn't do it. How did you find the way of doing them? How did you ignore the fear? Maybe you were very anxious in that moment?

Most of them were ODs. Meds were readily available in my house hold, otc and perscription. I didn't have any fear when I attempted any of them. Wasn't anxious, just wanted life to be done.
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
1,573
Most of them were ODs. Meds were readily available in my house hold, otc and perscription. I didn't have any fear when I attempted any of them. Wasn't anxious, just wanted life to be done.
In May I was really close of doing an overdose attempt. Fortunately, I discovered this place inmediately before it it and somebody warned me it won't work.

If he wouldn't said me that, I don't want to imagine what would happened. I won't succumb to impulsivity never again.
 
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Battered_Seoul

Student
Jun 13, 2018
172
Partial suspension two years ago. Felt a warm rush of blackout washing over me and reflexively stood up. Shit is hard to pull off.
 
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Fixin’ToDie

Member
Jun 11, 2018
95
Smooth until 2 years ago then everything fell apart now they have me on an antipsychotic that is killing me and I've tried to get off but I cant. Cant even leave my house. My body and soul are so tired, I'm afraid to live and afraid to die but I must get out of this hell.
That’s really bad news, shadow. Seems no matter how intact our lives might be, misfortune (whatever form it takes) alway stalks us. Suicide first entered my mind in my mid 50s (am now early 60s) when situationally my life started taking a sharp nosedive, although the course was pretty much set about 20 years ago.
 
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shadow11

Wizard
Jul 31, 2018
620
That’s really bad news, shadow. Seems no matter how intact our lives might be, misfortune (whatever form it takes) alway stalks us. Suicide first entered my mind in my mid 50s (am now early 60s) when situationally my life started taking a sharp nosedive, although the course was pretty much set about 20 years ago.
I'm 57 never pictured myself in this place but see no other way out but I'm scared
 
Oblivion

Oblivion

Arcanist
Aug 2, 2018
406
Tried the amytriptilline cocktail method, crushed and dissolved them in water.
there was no fucking way i could drink it, extremely bitter and acidic, the taste was the worst thing i ever tasted in my life, i don't know how is this even listed as a method, it's a war crime.
 
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286165

Member
Aug 6, 2018
46
Tried the amytriptilline cocktail method, crushed and dissolved them in water.
there was no fucking way i could drink it, extremely bitter and acidic, the taste was the worst thing i ever tasted in my life, i don't know how is this even listed as a method, it's a war crime.
I’m on this medication and it’s seriously so nasty, just taking one pill normally is awful. But it’s better than Effexor, which is what I switched off of.
 
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shadow11

Wizard
Jul 31, 2018
620
I’m on this medication and it’s seriously so nasty, just taking one pill normally is awful. But it’s better than Effexor, which is what I switched off of.
What do you take if you dont mind me asking
 
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286165

Member
Aug 6, 2018
46
What do you take if you dont mind me asking
Amytriptilline. It’s meant for anxiety and depression but it’s obviousky not treating the depression, or I wouldn’t be here. I don’t want to talk to my psychiatrist about my suicidal thoughts because A) she’s not a therapist and shouldn’t be, she always just ends up talking about herself and B) I refuse to be committed again, if there’s even a threat of that I’ll walk to the nearest bridge and jump right then.
 
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shadow11

Wizard
Jul 31, 2018
620
Amytriptilline. It’s meant for anxiety and depression but it’s obviousky not treating the depression, or I wouldn’t be here. I don’t want to talk to my psychiatrist about my suicidal thoughts because A) she’s not a therapist and shouldn’t be, she always just ends up talking about herself and B) I refuse to be committed again, if there’s even a threat of that I’ll walk to the nearest bridge and jump right then.
Never taken it they put me on zyprexa for anxiety but it's for bipolar and schizophrenia never should have been on it trying to get off it. Its killing me and I dont know what to do. Need something else with the klonopin but dont know what. Go to dr tomorrow we'll see. If nothing helps I'm ready to ctb.
 
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