BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
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Why? I slept last night, I've been taking my meds, I made myself eat breakfast. Today hasn't been objectively bad... I just feel horrible. I feel so heavy, melancholic, and just want to cry. I wish I could just lay in bed under the blankets, but I can't. My dad had his gun out and I wanted to put it to my head, my body was aching for me to do it. God.

** Um, there was nothing dangerous going on. I saw the gun and had urges. I'm safe, sorry guys.
 
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potatostripes

potatostripes

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Hey, what is that with your Dad? Did he wanna stop your suffering or what?

I know these days. Sometimes the whole world just feels like too much. I know it's a weird thing to say but what helps me is thinking of how I could help others. Like actually have a good impact on their life (not just mowing the grass for my parents or something). Cause it takes the focus away from my problems and kinda opens a new side in me. Maybe that can help you :)
 
BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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Apr 8, 2020
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Hey, what is that with your Dad? Did he wanna stop your suffering or what?

I know these days. Sometimes the whole world just feels like too much. I know it's a weird thing to say but what helps me is thinking of how I could help others. Like actually have a good impact on their life (not just mowing the grass for my parents or something). Cause it takes the focus away from my problems and kinda opens a new side in me. Maybe that can help you :)
Lmao, he was taking it with him but had it out for a moment. I'm helping babysit at least. Good advice though, because it's too easy to ruminate on personal issues.
 
potatostripes

potatostripes

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Lmao, he was taking it with him but had it out for a moment. I'm helping babysit at least. Good advice though, because it's too easy to ruminate on personal issues.

oh lol I read that he wanted to put it to your head. That's why I was so shocked
 
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