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Mar 28, 2018
I've recovered my old account.
The other one I have is named Couchking.

I've been on the sanctioned suicide on reddit for about a month before it closed. Then came here when it still had less than 50 members. Haven't been posting a lot lately.

It's always been the same thing with me. Attempt, fail. Make a goodbye thread. Fail. Maybe not even attempt properly. Investigate a new method. Quit. Make friends for a while. Stop talking to them. Lose contact. Make some angry comments and threads. Complain about everything...

I would like to apologize for the times I said or did anything that hurt people. I don't mean any mean things I've said in the past.

I don't like and am not proud of the life I've lived. I look back on it and think to myself: "That's not who I am".

I wanted to make this post since I wanted to be honest. I am not so sure that I will live much longer anymore...I am unsure of so many things but I'm not unsure of one thing. I wish the best to all of you.

Hope you can look past some of the things I've said and done. I want to be remembered as I am now and not as I've been in the past.

Thank you for reading this, it has helped me take some things off my shoulders.