- May 16, 2018
I used to post on the SS sub of reddit about a year ago and got to know a few people there, until it got removed. I am in my late 20's and I have been dealing with debilitating chronic illnesses for most of my life. I can't work full time, have a mountain of debt and haven't even finished my bachelor degree due to illness. I have had surgeries, lifestyle changes but nothing helps. Things are constantly getting worse with my health and as of right now I am sick 24/7. It seems the more I work towards improving my health, the harder my body tries to make me miserable. At this point, I am tired, sick and hopeless and therefore see suicide as the only option. The only thing that gives me comfort is that I would slap evolution right in the face when I do it :). I have done a lot of research and I am going the peaceful pill way. I was going to order N from Johnson PPH a year ago, but that fell through because I was having reservations with payment method at first and then postponed the whole suicide thing to give it one last try.