I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
Today is the day b4 my abortion. I’m more anxious about having to see the father, since he’s taking me there. The guy is a dick but at least he’s willing to pay for it. I guess I hope I can work through it, and hopefully I can prevent this in future. I’m kind of embarrassed going to the clinic being as old as Iam lol! I’m gonna be the oldest lady there probably. I’ve unfortunately had previous abortions in my 20’s because birth control with hormones didn’t work well for me. The real issue is not having had a stable commitment with anyone who would be a good provider and ok with having a kid in the event I got pregnant. Iam not a fan of single motherhood but I had a broken picker so I chose men unwisely. Anyway, I’m not looking forward to the shit feelings after abortion. There’s a sudden drop in hormones and you go through an emotional period because u feel different afterwards. You don’t leave unscathed after an abortion although it solves your immediate problems.