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profoundexperience

profoundexperience

You can feel the punishment but you cant commit ts
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You give up the world bit by bit. You become an accomplice to your own annihilation. Everything you do closes a door somewhere ahead of you... Finally there's only one door left. (from: The Sunset Limited)

Someone asked, "Being on the verge... the point of absolute immediacy - what is that like?" Zen master Joshu said, "Pissing is a small thing to do, but I have to do it myself."

I've had enough of life/existence and just want out... To turn-off this stupid, pointless, sad "TV show" and just go back to blissful "sleep": So, finally, it's time to go: I'm "catching the bus" right the heck now*.

~4.45 human beings are born on this Earth EVERY SECOND... So, ~534 new lives will begin in just the 2 minutes it takes you to read this note... All are "forced" into life without any of them having consented to it. Most will have to "bow and scrape" for mere survival**; the vast, vast majority will languish in "wage slavery"; many will be raped/assaulted/abused (in one way or another); most will sadly bring even more humans into this; ALL WILL DIE... it's inevitable for all of us, regardless of what we do.

And for what? What does my life matter compared to the tsunami of suffering here? Does anyone's life "matter"? Just what do we think we're accomplishing here? Are ice creams and orgasms and temporary feelings of "love" worth all the costs...? Can't we see that all our "pleasures" are merely manipulations to force us to keep-on "surviving"...?

I grieve deeply for all of those 534... I grieve deeply for all of us.

So I'm returning this "gift of life" -- a tacky, selfish gift of being a "meat robot" and puppet to so many vulgar impulses***... Knowing what I do now, I never would have asked for this.

Regarding committing suicide, for many of us it can be a very difficult — even an agonizing thing to do. Society & other people purposefully make it extremely hard (in a way we are not free, but this makes us slaves to them). I myself procrastinated/delayed so many times... it took me years to "get ready". So, I'd ask you to "let yourself off the hook": If it needs to happen... it will happen, at exactly the right time... when you're truly "ready".

I wish to deeply thank you, dear reader, as well as the owners, admins, & moderators of SS: All of you have helped reduce my suffering. There are many kind and understanding people here!

Now, as I take my leave from you, dear reader, please allow me to dedicate some words to you... both for right now in this very moment -- but also, if you must, for whatever may come -- up to and including the moment of your death -- and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond. I sincerely hope and wish that everything in your remaining life, as well as your death, goes exactly as you would want.

May you be free of suffering, dear reader (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, dear reader.
May you have physical happiness, dear reader.

May you have ease of well being, dear reader... dear friend.

So I begin "the end"... I should be unconscious within just a few minutes from posting this -- and be dead within around 400 seconds. Based on my life expectancy, I am saving myself from ~800,000,000 (eight-hundred million) seconds of pointless/meaningless, pedestrian and unendurable suffering/pain/agony.

400 for 800,000,000... a ratio of 1:2,000,000: That seems like a very small price to pay, and a good trade indeed!

I wish you great thanks, great success (in whatever you do), and great wellness dear reader...
Love, @profoundexperience


P.S. Sorry there is no possibility now of discussion (e.g., talking with me about it, etc.). Instead, what I'd kindly request is simply good wishes of luck and success for my future. Please "cross your fingers" for me... that is enough.

* By the inert gas/exit-bag method... following instructions in the "Five Last Acts" book and double-checked by the PPeH. Hood/bag instructions here: ** Appropriately 25,000 human beings die every single day from starvation.
*** Our programming and constantly "being gamed" both from within: biological/genetic and without: societal/interpersonal/economic.
 
Eire1992

Eire1992

Conducting an experiment on how it feels to die
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All I can say is I'm sorry I'm a recent arrival here and never got to know you. I wish you the best in whatever you need. Take care.
 
Wrennie

Wrennie

〘 Latent Corpse 〙
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OH MY GOD, I AM SO SORRY I MISSED YOU ;-;
You were so supportive of me during a time where I felt threatened in my own home, and offered me such sound advice and support. You were legitimately one of my favorite members on here, and I'm truly going to miss reading through your posts & the philosophical wisdom they contained. I am grateful you are finally at peace though... You didn't deserve to suffer. I just wish I could've told you how much I appreciated you while you were still on this earth. :'(
 
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yive

yive

anti-life
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goodbye. i will remember you, @profoundexperience. i wish you only the best with all my heart! :heart:
as the book EDH says, may freedom, love, peace and bliss be with you.

...see you on the other side soon
 
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Journeytoletgo

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❤️❤️❤️ wishing you a peaceful journey. Fly high, fly in peace and eternal sleep
 
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hotelbeneathground

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profoundexperience said:
~534 new lives will begin in just the 2 minutes it takes you to read this note... All are "forced" into life without any of them having consented to it. Most will have to "bow and scrape" for mere survival**; the vast, vast majority will languish in "wage slavery"; many will be raped/assaulted/abused (in one way or another); most will sadly bring even more humans into this; ALL WILL DIE... it's inevitable for all of us, regardless of what we do.

I grieve deeply for all of those 534... I grieve deeply for all of us.
:heart: I hope all went as planned
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Time goes by really fast
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profoundexperience said:
You give up the world bit by bit. You become an accomplice to your own annihilation. Everything you do closes a door somewhere ahead of you... Finally there's only one door left. (from: The Sunset Limited)

Someone asked, "Being on the verge... the point of absolute immediacy - what is that like?" Zen master Joshu said, "Pissing is a small thing to do, but I have to do it myself."

I've had enough of life/existence and just want out... To turn-off this stupid, pointless, sad "TV show" and just go back to blissful "sleep": So, finally, it's time to go: I'm "catching the bus" right the heck now*.

~4.45 human beings are born on this Earth EVERY SECOND... So, ~534 new lives will begin in just the 2 minutes it takes you to read this note... All are "forced" into life without any of them having consented to it. Most will have to "bow and scrape" for mere survival**; the vast, vast majority will languish in "wage slavery"; many will be raped/assaulted/abused (in one way or another); most will sadly bring even more humans into this; ALL WILL DIE... it's inevitable for all of us, regardless of what we do.

And for what? What does my life matter compared to the tsunami of suffering here? Does anyone's life "matter"? Just what do we think we're accomplishing here? Are ice creams and orgasms and temporary feelings of "love" worth all the costs...? Can't we see that all our "pleasures" are merely manipulations to force us to keep-on "surviving"...?

I grieve deeply for all of those 534... I grieve deeply for all of us.

So I'm returning this "gift of life" -- a tacky, selfish gift of being a "meat robot" and puppet to so many vulgar impulses***... Knowing what I do now, I never would have asked for this.

Regarding committing suicide, for many of us it can be a very difficult — even an agonizing thing to do. Society & other people purposefully make it extremely hard (in a way we are not free, but this makes us slaves to them). I myself procrastinated/delayed so many times... it took me years to "get ready". So, I'd ask you to "let yourself off the hook": If it needs to happen... it will happen, at exactly the right time... when you're truly "ready".

I wish to deeply thank you, dear reader, as well as the owners, admins, & moderators of SS: All of you have helped reduce my suffering. There are many kind and understanding people here!

Now, as I take my leave from you, dear reader, please allow me to dedicate some words to you... both for right now in this very moment -- but also, if you must, for whatever may come -- up to and including the moment of your death -- and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond. I sincerely hope and wish that everything in your remaining life, as well as your death, goes exactly as you would want.

May you be free of suffering, dear reader (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, dear reader.
May you have physical happiness, dear reader.

May you have ease of well being, dear reader... dear friend.

So I begin "the end"... I should be unconscious within just a few minutes from posting this -- and be dead within around 400 seconds. Based on my life expectancy, I am saving myself from ~800,000,000 (eight-hundred million) seconds of pointless/meaningless, pedestrian and unendurable suffering/pain/agony.

400 for 800,000,000... a ratio of 1:2,000,000: That seems like a very small price to pay, and a good trade indeed!

I wish you great thanks, great success (in whatever you do), and great wellness dear reader...
Love, @profoundexperience


P.S. Sorry there is no possibility now of discussion (e.g., talking with me about it, etc.). Instead, what I'd kindly request is simply good wishes of luck and success for my future. Please "cross your fingers" for me... that is enough.

* By the inert gas/exit-bag method... following instructions in the "Five Last Acts" book and double-checked by the PPeH. Hood/bag instructions here: ** Appropriately 25,000 human beings die every single day from starvation.
*** Our programming and constantly "being gamed" both from within: biological/genetic and without: societal/interpersonal/economic.
Sorry i missed you. You were definitely one of the SS members i most agreed with. . All your quotes here just on this post i'll save and try to reread so they sink into this brain of mine. like this one of your quotes : " *** Our programming and constantly "being gamed" both from within: biological/genetic and without: societal/interpersonal/economic."

( i and you seem to understand that our programming and gaming of us is not just from the Genes/biological but is also societal).

And i definitely agree with this other of your quotes here in your goodbye post : " Can't we see that all our "pleasures" are merely manipulations to force us to keep-on "surviving"...?

In my research of what the hell i am this shell this prison of cells that need to be fed constantly imo i lean toward the environment in the genes vs environment debate (as i believe most of our beliefs programmed into us from ages 0-7) and i guess it's too late to discuss this with you now as to where in the continuum of opinions yours were in on this topic of genes vs environment
 
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ExistentialEntropy

ExistentialEntropy

we all go home eventually
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I hope you find the peace you seek.
 
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Time goes by really fast
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profoundexperience said:
You give up the world bit by bit. You become an accomplice to your own annihilation. Everything you do closes a door somewhere ahead of you... Finally there's only one door left. (from: The Sunset Limited)

Someone asked, "Being on the verge... the point of absolute immediacy - what is that like?" Zen master Joshu said, "Pissing is a small thing to do, but I have to do it myself."

I've had enough of life/existence and just want out... To turn-off this stupid, pointless, sad "TV show" and just go back to blissful "sleep": So, finally, it's time to go: I'm "catching the bus" right the heck now*.

~4.45 human beings are born on this Earth EVERY SECOND... So, ~534 new lives will begin in just the 2 minutes it takes you to read this note... All are "forced" into life without any of them having consented to it. Most will have to "bow and scrape" for mere survival**; the vast, vast majority will languish in "wage slavery"; many will be raped/assaulted/abused (in one way or another); most will sadly bring even more humans into this; ALL WILL DIE... it's inevitable for all of us, regardless of what we do.

And for what? What does my life matter compared to the tsunami of suffering here? Does anyone's life "matter"? Just what do we think we're accomplishing here? Are ice creams and orgasms and temporary feelings of "love" worth all the costs...? Can't we see that all our "pleasures" are merely manipulations to force us to keep-on "surviving"...?

I grieve deeply for all of those 534... I grieve deeply for all of us.

So I'm returning this "gift of life" -- a tacky, selfish gift of being a "meat robot" and puppet to so many vulgar impulses***... Knowing what I do now, I never would have asked for this.

Regarding committing suicide, for many of us it can be a very difficult — even an agonizing thing to do. Society & other people purposefully make it extremely hard (in a way we are not free, but this makes us slaves to them). I myself procrastinated/delayed so many times... it took me years to "get ready". So, I'd ask you to "let yourself off the hook": If it needs to happen... it will happen, at exactly the right time... when you're truly "ready".

I wish to deeply thank you, dear reader, as well as the owners, admins, & moderators of SS: All of you have helped reduce my suffering. There are many kind and understanding people here!

Now, as I take my leave from you, dear reader, please allow me to dedicate some words to you... both for right now in this very moment -- but also, if you must, for whatever may come -- up to and including the moment of your death -- and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond. I sincerely hope and wish that everything in your remaining life, as well as your death, goes exactly as you would want.

May you be free of suffering, dear reader (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, dear reader.
May you have physical happiness, dear reader.

May you have ease of well being, dear reader... dear friend.

So I begin "the end"... I should be unconscious within just a few minutes from posting this -- and be dead within around 400 seconds. Based on my life expectancy, I am saving myself from ~800,000,000 (eight-hundred million) seconds of pointless/meaningless, pedestrian and unendurable suffering/pain/agony.

400 for 800,000,000... a ratio of 1:2,000,000: That seems like a very small price to pay, and a good trade indeed!

I wish you great thanks, great success (in whatever you do), and great wellness dear reader...
Love, @profoundexperience


P.S. Sorry there is no possibility now of discussion (e.g., talking with me about it, etc.). Instead, what I'd kindly request is simply good wishes of luck and success for my future. Please "cross your fingers" for me... that is enough.

* By the inert gas/exit-bag method... following instructions in the "Five Last Acts" book and double-checked by the PPeH. Hood/bag instructions here: ** Appropriately 25,000 human beings die every single day from starvation.
*** Our programming and constantly "being gamed" both from within: biological/genetic and without: societal/interpersonal/economic.
I hope everything went the way you want it to. Selfishly i hope you didn't go through with it and keep posting. Your posts were infinitely interesting . big loss for this site imo. You linked some very interesting life changing books and quotes and your insights that show real reality. too bad i didn't pm to discuss those topics more. same opportunity i missed with Letze. i'm really messed up. i'm a really bad procrastinator . i think i have time to do everything later but i never get to do anything nor have ever. my time clock is way off . i live as if i had 1000's of years to solve these problems or do anything when the years and decades go by as in a blink of an eye. I'll go reread your posts, really amazing stuff, and am reading some of the books you linked also amazing and set my mind to reality like the "
Ever Deeper honesty " book and this book among others :


"Here is an excerpt of Alberto Radicati's 1732 work, A Philosophical Dissertation upon Death: Composed for the Consolation of the Unhappy (a book that was not only banned, but caused both Radicati and his translator to be jailed — because it basically says anyone can commit suicide, FOR ANY REASON THEY DAMN WELL WANT even just being "unhappy", and it is NO PROBLEM WHATSOEVER TO DO SO = that any difficulties you have committing suicide are based on abject lies you're allowing yourself to believe) that makes some good points...

The whole book is available on Amazon Kindle for $0.99 USD."
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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It really hurts when any of us decides to leave this world but unfortunately, sometimes, it seems just unavoidable.
I've really enjoyed seeing you around and we talked a few times on some thread. You were really nice.

Wish you lots of love and eternal peace!

Hugs,

Matt
 

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