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Hood of Bone

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ReadyForIt said:
Yeah, I’ve kindof been having some second thoughts about shooting behind the ear to hit the brainstem. I’ve done some google image searches to more or less “confirm” the brain stem’s location behind the ear, and there seems to be some inconsistency in the diagrams that I’ve found. Like some of them have it directly behind the ear, while others show it in line with the ear itself, and others still depict it as being behind the ear and down some.
Has anyone else had trouble with confirming the brainstem’s location like this? Can anyone with some legitimate anatomical/medical knowledge chime in here please? I really don’t want to work up the courage to CTB after all this time just to end up a vegetable.
I wouldn't do it behind the ear, only because it seems more difficult to make sure exactly where you're pointing. I think your best bet with a handgun is through the mouth like Budd Dwyer (though don't angle it up as high as he did, that might decrease your chance of hitting the brainstem).

My current plan is to use a Pietta 1873 .357 magnum with hollow point ammunition, pointed straight into my mouth (Some people say you should aim slightly upward, others slightly downward. I doubt it matters a huge amount, and keeping the gun level seems easier than trying to make sure it's pointed at precisely 15 degrees or whatever). I'll also take a bunch of aspirin beforehand and stand chest-deep in a lake near my house, so that I have a failsafe of bleeding out and/or drowning in the unlikely chance that I don't hit the brainstem.
 
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Hood of Bone said:
I wouldn't do it behind the ear, only because it seems more difficult to make sure exactly where you're pointing. I think your best bet with a handgun is through the mouth like Budd Dwyer (though don't angle it up as high as he did, that might decrease your chance of hitting the brainstem).

My current plan is to use a Pietta 1873 .357 magnum with hollow point ammunition, pointed straight into my mouth (Some people say you should aim slightly upward, others slightly downward. I doubt it matters a huge amount, and keeping the gun level seems easier than trying to make sure it's pointed at precisely 15 degrees or whatever). I'll also take a bunch of aspirin beforehand and stand chest-deep in a lake near my house, so that I have a failsafe of bleeding out and/or drowning in the unlikely chance that I don't
For some reason I’m averse to pointing it in my mouth. I can’t really explain why, but somehow I imagine it being more painful if it goes wrong and you don’t hit the brainstem. Like there’s so much variation in the angles that people suggest: 45 degrees, 30 degrees, 15 degrees, 0 degrees. And even then, how does one know precisely what angle at which they’re aiming? I don’t want to risk that. Why does handgun suicide have to be so complicated? It’s crazy how many news stories you see about people attempting with a handgun to their head and surviving. I definitely don’t want that to be me.

I admire you for being so resolute in your decision/plan to just shoot straight back in your mouth. I wish I had that kind of conviction for my plan.
 
Hood of Bone

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ReadyForIt said:
For some reason I’m averse to pointing it in my mouth. I can’t really explain why, but somehow I imagine it being more painful if it goes wrong and you don’t hit the brainstem. Like there’s so much variation in the angles that people suggest: 45 degrees, 30 degrees, 15 degrees, 0 degrees. And even then, how does one know precisely what angle at which they’re aiming? I don’t want to risk that. Why does handgun suicide have to be so complicated? It’s crazy how many news stories you see about people attempting with a handgun to their head and surviving. I definitely don’t want that to be me.

I admire you for being so resolute in your decision/plan to just shoot straight back in your mouth. I wish I had that kind of conviction for my plan.
I get how you feel about pointing it into the mouth. My initial plan was to point it behind the ear, but as I did more research I became more comfortable with the idea of doing it Dwyer-style. Based on everything I've read from multiple sources, I'd argue that while handgun suicide is definitely more complicated than Hollywood would have you believe, it's still an essentially certain death as long as you use a large enough caliber with hollow points and you don't make a rookie mistake like aiming at your temple or under your chin. Remember that the media will amplify rare horrifying cases of handgun suicide attempts gone wrong - you don't hear about the vast majority of cases where the person was successful and very quickly died.

I'm only about 90% sure that I really want to go through with this, and I'll have to save up some money for a few months to buy the gun anyway. But I take comfort in the knowledge that I have a solid, reliable and relatively quick CTB method out there waiting for me if/when I need it.
 
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I’m also really averse to using hollow points as well. Which is why I’m planning on taking aspirin, then shooting both femoral arteries before aiming for the heart and then eventually the brainstem. Hopefully all that will be enough to do the job with .45 ACP FMJs.
 
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finally i can work to get money for the gun
 
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When aiming in your mouth out the top/back of your head, is it better to use Hollow Points or FMJ?
 
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Cant go back said:
When aiming in your mouth out the top/back of your head, is it better to use Hollow Points or FMJ?
Hollow points. They dump all their kinetic energy on impact. Cause the most damage.
 
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I'm in a small town...so maybe I don't have a real perspective but it's my shitty understanding that ammo is harder to get lately. It's like they are stocking guns, but not ammo just to disempower people.
 
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Alwaysbadtime said:
I'm in a small town...so maybe I don't have a real perspective but it's my shitty understanding that ammo is harder to get lately. It's like they are stocking guns, but not ammo just to disempower people.
It's harder to find and it's expensive due to the shortage. I would mainly just say it's expensive. If you want the ammo, you can buy it.
 
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Jumping_realms said:
It's harder to find and it's expensive due to the shortage. I would mainly just say it's expensive. If you want the ammo, you can buy it.
Not that I am buying a gun, but can one just order bullets online? Just curious. I went to a store...they were like you can buy our guns, but we have no bullets.
 
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