ForestDuck

ForestDuck

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Jul 11, 2018
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If you have almost died, can you please explain the feeling? I want to know I'm actually dying and not feeling pain when I take my N so I know what to look out for.
 
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I will go soon

Member
Apr 9, 2018
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Actually when I was a baby I was about 15 minutes from dying from dehydration I was told. My parents were visiting a country where the water wasn't as safe to drink when I was 3 months old. I don't remember anything from that though. Maybe I wish it would've happened then. I was a pull of the trigger away another time though, I felt nothing, I felt numb, you can feel many things though. It depends on the kind of person you are, your surroundings, why you want to die, etc. There is a such thing as a survival instinct. You should be fine as long as you can handle the taste and be secluded long enough.
 
Luke

Luke

tired
Apr 11, 2018
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It feels similar to when you're really tired or sleepy, lay down the bed and instantly fall asleep.
The next thing you know it's morning. Except there is no morning.
There's the ICU instead, bright lights a tube in your throat and a machine beeping.

You remember not long ago downing your perfect cocktail, and wondering what the fuck went wrong and how to get out of here to try again.
 
iamthezero

iamthezero

Fiend Queen
Jun 22, 2018
28
I was driving once, passed out behind the wheel and ended up in a bayou. I was woken by feeling the water began to fill the car. It was a very numb and dissociating feeling. Once my adrenaline kicked in, didn’t feel much physically or emotionally. I was sadly 6 inches from hitting a cement block along the bank.
 
shattered dreams

shattered dreams

Student
Jun 5, 2018
134
I am no stranger to death. I literally was born dead. I ended up being a breach baby and I suffocated on the way out of my mom. The damn doctors revived me. :angry: I should not be here, and would not have if the doctors did not intervene. :angry:


Around 5 years ago, I actually had my own little apartment. I used to drink 20 shots of vodka a day, every day as I limited myself to that. One day I was really drunk and eating some steak. I started choking, so I went to the fridge to drink some water to clear it. It always worked before, but it did not this time. Then I kept coughing and coughing and I started fading out. I saw stars everywhere and it was an euphoric experience. Then, right before I passed out, I reached down my throat and pulled out the piece of meat I was choking on. I do not know why I did that as this would have been a guaranteed death and it was painless. I lived alone so no one would have saved me. Again, I do not know why I saved myself. It was not a conscious decision.
 
iamthezero

iamthezero

Fiend Queen
Jun 22, 2018
28
I am no stranger to death. I literally was born dead. I ended up being a breach baby and I suffocated on the way out of my mom. The damn doctors revived me. :angry: I should not be here, and would not have if the doctors did not intervene. :angry:


Around 5 years ago, I actually had my own little apartment. I used to drink 20 shots of vodka a day, every day as I limited myself to that. One day I was really drunk and eating some steak. I started choking, so I went to the fridge to drink some water to clear it. It always worked before, but it did not this time. Then I kept coughing and coughing and I started fading out. I saw stars everywhere and it was an euphoric experience. Then, right before I passed out, I reached down my throat and pulled out the piece of meat I was choking on. I do not know why I did that as this would have been a guaranteed death and it was painless. I lived alone so no one would have saved me. Again, I do not know why I saved myself. It was not a conscious decision.

I always like to think there’s a small part of myself fighting to save me. Whether I as a whole appreciate it or not. There have been a few times I’ve intervened, looked back and regretted it.
 
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TooLate2582

Experienced
May 6, 2018
258
Depends on your definition of “almost”....

Seeing the light that everyone talks about? No.

Have I been in situations that could have easily led to my demise? Numerous times. Whitewater rafting and falling out, then swimming through Class V rapids, occupational hazards and such.

It’s a rush in that sense and it’s why I continue to take those risks including maintaining employment in a profession that has a high level of danger.

It’s totally different than the reasons that bring me here.
 
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Suicidalsamurai

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Jul 22, 2018
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I was one of the very small amount of people who has Ingested more than 20grams of Dextromethorphan and survived
In theory, it would have slowed my brain activity down and send me into a comma, then leading to death after a few hours when the peak levels kicked in and my heart stopped. Instead I went into a 3 week coma and was put on a machine that kept my heart beating
All I remember is an intense feeling of peace, not bliss, not euphoria, just peace and acceptance. I (thought) I knew I was going to die, and I felt content with that fact. Then I passed out and I could still think, I couldn't feel anything though. It was just like having my eyes closed but I couldn't feel my body. I thought that I was dead, and that this was the afterlife. Just silent contemplation, for eternity. It wasn't even that bad, I felt so at peace knowing I could finnaly just relax and exist without stress or anger. Then I woke up. And I was fucking pissed.
 
ForestDuck

ForestDuck

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Jul 11, 2018
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I was one of the very small amount of people who has Ingested more than 20grams of Dextromethorphan and survived
In theory, it would have slowed my brain activity down and send me into a comma, then leading to death after a few hours when the peak levels kicked in and my heart stopped. Instead I went into a 3 week coma and was put on a machine that kept my heart beating
All I remember is an intense feeling of peace, not bliss, not euphoria, just peace and acceptance. I (thought) I knew I was going to die, and I felt content with that fact. Then I passed out and I could still think, I couldn't feel anything though. It was just like having my eyes closed but I couldn't feel my body. I thought that I was dead, and that this was the afterlife. Just silent contemplation, for eternity. It wasn't even that bad, I felt so at peace knowing I could finnaly just relax and exist without stress or anger. Then I woke up. And I was fucking pissed.

Oh wow. Thanks for sharing your story! I've heard many people feel at peace. It's insane how you survived, but maybe it might be a sign that your time isn't up yet? Maybe you can change your life around? For me, I'm waiting for two bottles of N, once I get those I will probably drink them on the same day, ensuring I'm away from everyone so I can die in peace.
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
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I was one of the very small amount of people who has Ingested more than 20grams of Dextromethorphan and survived
In theory, it would have slowed my brain activity down and send me into a comma, then leading to death after a few hours when the peak levels kicked in and my heart stopped. Instead I went into a 3 week coma and was put on a machine that kept my heart beating
All I remember is an intense feeling of peace, not bliss, not euphoria, just peace and acceptance. I (thought) I knew I was going to die, and I felt content with that fact. Then I passed out and I could still think, I couldn't feel anything though. It was just like having my eyes closed but I couldn't feel my body. I thought that I was dead, and that this was the afterlife. Just silent contemplation, for eternity. It wasn't even that bad, I felt so at peace knowing I could finnaly just relax and exist without stress or anger. Then I woke up. And I was fucking pissed.
All that you said sounds extremely pleasant, I will think in this next time irratonal fear posseses me. I would be really grateful if it works.
 

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