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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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Loneliness has finally become a friend of mine, it seems.

I've just got used to being alone and lonely all the time since I started living alone again (last January).

However, I'm constantly talking to people online (you all, my students, some online fellows from other places, my family and my only friend left in real life) so, I feel don't feel all alone at all.

Yet, I will probably ctb before my 40s but loneliness won't be one of my reasons to do so.


What about you? Has loneliness become your friend? Would you ctb because of it?


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Matt
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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I actually like being on my own. Yes, I spend a lot of time stuck with my own thoughts but people can be exhausting. They are capable of causing us a lot of pain too and I find them disappointing. I’ve always been very introverted. I guess I have my cat though, as pets are better than humans.
 
WornOutLife

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Symbiote said:
Does talking to my bottle of SN count as a friend?

Haha I think it does!
I guess I'm not friends with SN yet. You know, I'm still waiting for "him" lol.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

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I feel that solitude can be a person's friend but loneliness can only be brutal.
 
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Scarred

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Yes. One gets used to it. Sometimes it hurts to be lonely though
 
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scarletohara

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WornOutLife said:
Loneliness has finally become a friend of mine, it seems.

I've just got used to being alone and lonely all the time since I started living alone again (last January).

However, I'm constantly talking to people online (you all, my students, some online fellows from other places, my family and my only friend left in real life) so, I feel don't feel all alone at all.

Yet, I will probably ctb before my 40s but loneliness won't be one of my reasons to do so.


What about you? Has loneliness become your friend? Would you ctb because of it?

Hugs,

Matt
i dont feel lonely, i struggle to feel anything nowadays, there is only so much someone can take before they reach their breaking point. im just resigned to ctb once my wally cat dies, i love my cat so not totally numb
 
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Wrennie

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I've intentionally made efforts to distance myself from every one of my IRL friends so that in the event of my CTB It will likely be less 'hard hitting' for them, since they'll already have come to know what it's like to lead a life without me by their side (as I used to play a very active role in all of their lives). Hopefully they will be conditioned to my 'lack of presence' enough by the time my death rolls around.

So yes, to address the main question behind this thread: loneliness is now my friend (If I don't count the friends I've made on here of course!)
 
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suicidesheep31

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@Wrennie I somehow do the same. I already distance myself from others and don't want to create new relationship because I don't want to hurt them when I won't be there. I also distance myself because I think that are just happier when I am not around. My pessimism can hurt them sometimes. I just want to protect them.
 
NormaJeane

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You have probably gotten used to being alone, but man is a social being and therefore you are on the Internet among others who communicate with you. But would it not be better if we all could meet instead?
 
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Scribble Fan

Scribble Fan

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I'm not sure I could ever call loneliness a friend. That deep, cold aching is always there, driving me insane.
 
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shaveashaved

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loneliness is a choice. there are always people who need your company but you never show interest. the problem is never loneliness. it's the fear of intimacy and relating with people.
 
insanedoomer

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WornOutLife said:
Loneliness has finally become a friend of mine, it seems.

I've just got used to being alone and lonely all the time since I started living alone again (last January).

However, I'm constantly talking to people online (you all, my students, some online fellows from other places, my family and my only friend left in real life) so, I feel don't feel all alone at all.

Yet, I will probably ctb before my 40s but loneliness won't be one of my reasons to do so.


What about you? Has loneliness become your friend? Would you ctb because of it?

Hugs,

Matt
it's the best thing y could get ever from this life :)
 
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loopylou

loopylou

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shaveashaved said:
loneliness is a choice. there are always people who need your company but you never show interest. the problem is never loneliness. it's the fear of intimacy and relating with people.
 
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blue_muse

blue_muse

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Loneliness hasn't become my friend because it regularly reared its head in social settings with friends. I've come to embrace it now we're face to face.
 
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WornOutLife

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NormaJeane said:
. But would it not be better if we all could meet instead?

That would be certainly epic!!
I've fantasized a few times about throwing a party and have some while talking with all the lovely people I've met on SS.

If I ever get lots of money, I'll invite you all to Argentina lol.
 
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Eire1992

Eire1992

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I feel loneliness is a good friend to me. When I'm alone I can take the proverbial mask off. Nothing changes about how I feel inside, but I don't have to expend the energy needed to not let any of that show on my face. I can drop the facade and after a long day, that can make the nights bearable.
 
Bullit

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I am dying of loneliness. I'm like a guy who finds food repulsive but is slowly starving. I wish there was a way...
 
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In my opinion, if you can handle knowing where to find information you need, or access to resources, you don't need people. People are great for company and networking, but otherwise we live in a vapid, vacuous society that's so washed up with self-interest it's hard to recognize authenticity.

I really like being alone, Things are super easy
 

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