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thetwilightzone

thetwilightzone

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Jul 14, 2018
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I met this guy in a psych ward who was interested in conspiracies (specifically David Icke and the Reptillians) along with being interested in taking drugs. He's done everything from heroin, meth, ecstasy, coke, GHB etc...

Damn I didn't get his number but honestly. It seems like someone is taunting me. We had so much in common and it was only by chance that he spoke about that.
 
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lv-gras

fledermausßßßßßßßß
Jul 27, 2018
623
Off topic:
Ahhhh, Kleist, just saw that link. One of the greatest ! I even invested heavily into the Kritische Ausgabe, which cost me an arm and a leg, but it is a fascinating project, as every comma counts in his writing.

cool, and couldn’t agree more
 
Pointlessabyss

Pointlessabyss

Impulse will takeover one day...
Sep 17, 2018
294
I met this guy in a psych ward who was interested in conspiracies (specifically David Icke and the Reptillians) along with being interested in taking drugs. He's done everything from heroin, meth, ecstasy, coke, GHB etc...

Damn I didn't get his number but honestly. It seems like someone is taunting me. We had so much in common and it was only by chance that he spoke about that.

Yeah, met a few people who I’ve clicked with... but only have told two people truelly about my though process!
Was too much for one of them to handle and the other I’ve then had to lie to and pretend things are not that bad. But hey ho, some people can’t accept reality
 
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Abel

Abel

Delusional
Sep 11, 2018
60
Not me. It's not that I've never had the opportunity, but rather because I'm a very difficult person to get along with... my extreme mood swings have scared many potential friends off. I guess it's for the better, though I do wonder what it would be like to have a 'best friend'.
 
wezel

wezel

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Aug 14, 2018
221
Wonderful picture, I haven't seen this one.
He reminds me in some ways of German writer Georg Buchner, another precursor of modern times at least in his "Lenz" and of course "Wozzeck".
The musical equivalent from that time would be Robert Schumann perhaps.
All these artists were very vulnerable individuals and oversensitive to an extreme.
Kleist was perhaps the most radical one, I find his deliberate and sabotaging use of punctuation fascinating.
A seemingly relaxed text is chopped up by all these commas, which show up in unexpected places. One has to actually overcome these interruptions. The result is a disturbed movement and a desperate attempt to stay sober whilst facing the frightening message. And finally, there is always some laconic remark, that's just like when the piano lid is slammed shut.

Nuff said, thank you so much for that second image !!
 
Escargot Shorts

Escargot Shorts

Tears-of-a-Clown Ass Bitch
Sep 26, 2018
184
We had so much in common and it was only by chance that he spoke about that.

I met someone who is now a pretty close friend like that. Like, the many circumstances that lead us throughout life got us at the same place at the same time where we just hit it off. We'd eventually get into a lot of conflict and a few cold wars but I think it took it's toll on both of us and we worked things out. I think it also helped that we were rolling in the same friend group and a sense of social responsibility/hyper self-awareness prevented us from ever wanting to drag the others into things so we'd end up having to spend time together during those rough patches anyway, but being polite and civil.
 
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Maravillosa

Maravillosa

Mistress of all she surveys
Sep 7, 2018
638
In 1983, when I was a senior in high school and visiting colleges, I met a college senior, W., who was my campus guide. We had ridiculously much in common, except that she was four years older than I. I did not end up attending the college she attended, but we began a long and intense correspondence, with occasional visits. We shared our fiction projects, our love of history (especially Victorian England), our membership in the Society for Creative Anachronism, our striving to follow Jesus...

However, in 1990, when I was 23, our correspondence lapsed. I had become rather paranoid and suicidal (I had been suicidal before in my correspondence, but I did not want to seek more psychological help, since all I was getting was psychotropic medication that gave me nasty side effects), and W. was very much pro-life when it came to ctb. I wonder what happened to W., and I wonder if she ever wonders what happened to me.
 
whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
In 1983, when I was a senior in high school and visiting colleges, I met a college senior, W., who was my campus guide. We had ridiculously much in common, except that she was four years older than I. I did not end up attending the college she attended, but we began a long and intense correspondence, with occasional visits. We shared our fiction projects, our love of history (especially Victorian England), our membership in the Society for Creative Anachronism, our striving to follow Jesus...

However, in 1990, when I was 23, our correspondence lapsed. I had become rather paranoid and suicidal (I had been suicidal before in my correspondence, but I did not want to seek more psychological help, since all I was getting was psychotropic medication that gave me nasty side effects), and W. was very much pro-life when it came to ctb. I wonder what happened to W., and I wonder if she ever wonders what happened to me.
Gosh.
That could be a Movie.
I was so entertained while reading that.
Didn't want it to end.
 
Trashcan

Trashcan

Trash
Aug 31, 2018
1,234
Yes. My best friend and I joke we’re the same person because we are so similar. She doesn’t know I want to ctb but in other ways, we are very similar.
 
whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
Yes. My best friend and I joke we’re the same person because we are so similar. She doesn’t know I want to ctb but in other ways, we are very similar.
She doesn't know You want to CTB?
If you're both really that a like it would be safe to guess that You don't know that She wants to CTB also.
Suicide Pact, You're welcome.
 
Maravillosa

Maravillosa

Mistress of all she surveys
Sep 7, 2018
638
Something to live for,maybe?

Well, I am already postponing my ctb because I want to outlive my mother and successfully publish the novel I am working on (I have about 30,000 words of a first draft: when completed, it should be 60,000-80,000 words). Writing a story (novella length, about 20,000-30,000 words?) about my friendship with W. would be another reason not to ctb any time soon :wink:
 
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whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
Well, I am already postponing my ctb because I want to outlive my mother and successfully publish the novel I am working on (I have about 30,000 words of a first draft: when completed, it should be 60,000-80,000 words). Writing a story (novella length, about 20,000-30,000 words?) about my friendship with W. would be another reason not to ctb any time soon :wink:
Sounds Beautiful.
Why did you want to CTB to begin with?
If waiting for your mother to pass first, seems you still have a little hope to hang on longer or when she passes that will just be the nail in the coffin?
 
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Maravillosa

Maravillosa

Mistress of all she surveys
Sep 7, 2018
638
Sounds Beautiful.
Why did you want to CTB to begin with?
If waiting for your mother to pass first, seems you still have a little hope to hang on longer or when she passes that will just be the nail in the coffin?

I have been suicidal off and on since I was 16 years old (I am 52 now). Why do I want to ctb? Life can be so painful and unfair. After my mother dies, there is a good chance that I will be homeless and alone (I am on SSI and I do not know if I will ever get to the top of the several Section 8 housing lists I have applied to). Also, I am terrified of old age and dying: I would rather control the circumstances of my own demise, even though ctb goes against my Catholic beliefs. And yes, my mother's passing away would be the final nail in my coffin.