- Jun 18, 2018
Why not become infamous?
I would describe it in general as doing something you would never do and possibly instantly getting authorities after you, that's some good adrenaline boost. I also took gas (yes that also I feel very embarrased for it) before I went for the bottle so they had my car details. Taken this all into account I'm still here today so I wouldn't try do something that can't be fixed later....Really? What would be some other examples?
Doing something "crazy" or improbable - "going out with a bang", is a common idea. But probably more so among people who are not suicidal themselves.
I recently saw a talk given by a man who has suffered from depression, and he made a point that stuck with me: "The opposite of depression is not happiness, the opposite of depression is vitality."
The reason why very few people who are suicidal don't leverage their suicidality into pulling a heist, going to fight ISIS, assassinating a hated political figure, etc. is that all of those acts are acts of vitality. The vast majority of suicidal people lack vitality - the lack of the feeling of vitality tends to be exactly why they are suicidal.
Two examples of "going out with a bang" come to mind - the recently discussed "decapitation by car and rope" and the guy who made a "killdozer" and went on a rampage against his enemies. Both of these suicides were acts of desperation and spite. They had a focus that most suicidal people don't have. Most suicidal people don't have a specific enemy that they are willing to die to spite. Both of these guys did.
I'd argue that you can't compare different feelings as true or wrong. It's more complex than "left or right".I recently saw a talk given by a man who has suffered from depression, and he made a point that stuck with me: "The opposite of depression is not happiness, the opposite of depression is vitality."
Well, bipolar people can, yes. But so? When someone is manic, they are not currently depressed.
Actually they can be, it's called a 'mixed episode'. It's where the agitation, stimulation, racing thoughts, insomnia, irritability, maybe delusions, of mania combine with the dread, dysphoria, guilt, hopelessness of depression. I think it's the bipolar state most likely to lead to a suicide attempt.
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