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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2022
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haven't cut my hair in 2 years
i wear the same clothes everyday
haven't talked to my friends in 2 months.

i think im slowly turning into a hermit.
Dude, you may be trying to avoid stressful situations with people.
 
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Girl-shaped Wound

Girl-shaped Wound

In love with a person that doesn't exist
Feb 19, 2022
153
Haven't shaved for days
Keeps the appearance of delay
The luxury of one more dye
Pretend humility, the ugly lie

Sorry not sorry, it's what I heard when I saw the title of your thread.

It sounds like you have hardcore depression... Assuming you weren't always like this. I used to be in a pretty similar state, though not that bad. I thought that I am 'maturing' by no longer caring about expressing myself through clothes. No, it turned out that my mental illness has reached a new level.
Wishing you the best, whatever that may be.
 
Wojaczek

Wojaczek

Student
Oct 24, 2021
116
Is there something specific hurting you, or causing you more distress that average?
being abstinent from alcohol has been a huge change in my life, havent really gone out much since.
Haven't shaved for days
Keeps the appearance of delay
The luxury of one more dye
Pretend humility, the ugly lie

Sorry not sorry, it's what I heard when I saw the title of your thread.

It sounds like you have hardcore depression... Assuming you weren't always like this. I used to be in a pretty similar state, though not that bad. I thought that I am 'maturing' by no longer caring about expressing myself through clothes. No, it turned out that my mental illness has reached a new level.
Wishing you the best, whatever that may be.
im drowning in mud, my friend.

thanks for the song, i like it.

hope you're also able to get out of this rut.
 
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lebrodude

Member
Jul 18, 2022
41
I can never go more than a few days without shaving as being stubbly makes me feel dirty lol
 
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leeloosnow

leeloosnow

Specialist
Aug 28, 2022
373
being abstinent from alcohol has been a huge change in my life, havent really gone out much since.

im drowning in mud, my friend.

thanks for the song, i like it.

hope you're also able to get out of this rut.
definitely familiar stuff. having spent years on (and off) the wagon i definitely can say alcohol consumption is a huge factor on my depression. ironically me trying not to fk up a bus ride is keeping me (more or less) sober. in the past i've heard (and experienced) taking over a year to feel more normal-ish, but then there's other issues >.<
 
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pauly1963

Existence is evil, meaningless and pointless.
Nov 12, 2022
108
definitely familiar stuff. having spent years on (and off) the wagon i definitely can say alcohol consumption is a huge factor on my depression. ironically me trying not to fk up a bus ride is keeping me (more or less) sober. in the past i've heard (and experienced) taking over a year to feel more normal-ish, but then there's other issues >.<
Same here. Currently sober, but have come very close to drinking again. But I dare not, because once I start drinking I literally cannot stop until I collapse into a drunken coma. But then again, I REALLY miss how it makes me feel as regards taking away my anxiety.
haven't cut my hair in 2 years
i wear the same clothes everyday
haven't talked to my friends in 2 months.

i think im slowly turning into a hermit.
I've been there Brother. One particular bout of crushing depression turned me into a vegetable. Didn't shave or bathe for approximately 6 weeks, which was unusual because I have OCD and am usually very germaphobic. It sounds like you too are probably experiencing a particularly bad bout of depression. Please be wary of getting skin infections, lice etc. I had lice in my beard, pubes etc because I hadn't washed in ages. I hope you find a way out of this my friend. I hope you get better, if that's what you want. 🤗
 
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Wojaczek

Wojaczek

Student
Oct 24, 2021
116
Same here. Currently sober, but have come very close to drinking again. But I dare not, because once I start drinking I literally cannot stop until I collapse into a drunken coma. But then again, I REALLY miss how it makes me feel as regards taking away my anxiety.

I've been there Brother. One particular bout of crushing depression turned me into a vegetable. Didn't shave or bathe for approximately 6 weeks, which was unusual because I have OCD and am usually very germaphobic. It sounds like you too are probably experiencing a particularly bad bout of depression. Please be wary of getting skin infections, lice etc. I had lice in my beard, pubes etc because I hadn't washed in ages. I hope you find a way out of this my friend. I hope you get better, if that's what you want. 🤗
was also a constant binge drinker that could only stop once i felt satisfied woth my drunkenness.

the fucked up thing is, i know that things would get slightly better if i started drinking again, at least the social and joy for life aspect of it.
 
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pauly1963

Existence is evil, meaningless and pointless.
Nov 12, 2022
108
was also a constant binge drinker that could only stop once i felt satisfied woth my drunkenness.

the fucked up thing is, i know that things would get slightly better if i started drinking again, at least the social and joy for life aspect of it.
That's so true: Drinking actually made me feel free, and more outgoing. But the downsides of it all are terrible. The dreadful hangovers, and delerium tremens after you've been on a long bender. I was hallucinating just before I went into alcohol rehab and this 7 foot chicken crawled out from under my bed. It was wearing a cowboy hat and leather underpants. It gave me a really evil look, then pulled down its pants. It had a big horrible chicken cock, it said in a horrible chicken voice that it was going to fuck me up. I ran out of the house because it started chasing me. I have been sober ever since.
 
Wojaczek

Wojaczek

Student
Oct 24, 2021
116
That's so true: Drinking actually made me feel free, and more outgoing. But the downsides of it all are terrible. The dreadful hangovers, and delerium tremens after you've been on a long bender. I was hallucinating just before I went into alcohol rehab and this 7 foot chicken crawled out from under my bed. It was wearing a cowboy hat and leather underpants. It gave me a really evil look, then pulled down its pants. It had a big horrible chicken cock, it said in a horrible chicken voice that it was going to fuck me up. I ran out of the house because it started chasing me. I have been sober ever since.
that sounds funny yet terrifying as fuck.
yeah the horrible hangovers and withdrawals made me quit as well.

its nice not being addicted to anything but the anxieties im getting now are insane.

did you also suffer from anxities after quitting?
 
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pauly1963

Existence is evil, meaningless and pointless.
Nov 12, 2022
108
that sounds funny yet terrifying as fuck.
yeah the horrible hangovers and withdrawals made me quit as well.

its nice not being addicted to anything but the anxieties im getting now are insane.

did you also suffer from anxities after quitting?
Absolutely. I am anxious everyday. I also suffer from panic attacks, but not as much as I used to. Most days are a battle to resist buying some booze. I really miss certain aspects of it. But I definitely don't ever want to see that fucking chicken again.
 
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Cathy Ames

Cathy Ames

Ephemeral Machine
Mar 11, 2022
1,760
that sounds funny yet terrifying as fuck.
yeah the horrible hangovers and withdrawals made me quit as well.

its nice not being addicted to anything but the anxieties im getting now are insane.

did you also suffer from anxities after quitting?
How long ago did you quit? Are you able to go to a doctor and get checked out?
 
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Wojaczek

Wojaczek

Student
Oct 24, 2021
116
Absolutely. I am anxious everyday. I also suffer from panic attacks, but not as much as I used to. Most days are a battle to resist buying some booze. I really miss certain aspects of it. But I definitely don't ever want to see that fucking chicken again.
the fucking anxiety is so annoying constantly on the verge of panicing.
this life is just so incredible.
How long ago did you quit? Are you able to go to a doctor and get checked out?
2 months now so not in danger of seizures or anything, i think my brain just has a hard time coping with being clear all the time which in turn causes snxiety for me.
its just a cycle of shit.
 
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pauly1963

Existence is evil, meaningless and pointless.
Nov 12, 2022
108
How long ago did you quit? Are you able to go to a doctor and get checked out?
It's been 7 months since I quit. The Doctors in the UK are useless so I never bother seeing them for checkups etc. Last time I saw a Doctor was just before leaving rehab. They just wanted to give me lots of pills but I refused.
 
leeloosnow

leeloosnow

Specialist
Aug 28, 2022
373
That's so true: Drinking actually made me feel free, and more outgoing. But the downsides of it all are terrible. The dreadful hangovers, and delerium tremens after you've been on a long bender. I was hallucinating just before I went into alcohol rehab and this 7 foot chicken crawled out from under my bed. It was wearing a cowboy hat and leather underpants. It gave me a really evil look, then pulled down its pants. It had a big horrible chicken cock, it said in a horrible chicken voice that it was going to fuck me up. I ran out of the house because it started chasing me. I have been sober ever since.
that is a fkn war story there man WOW i don't, i mean, i been to A LOT of meetings and never have i ever heard of someone getting sobered up by a 7ft cowboy chicken furry nightmare hellscape or whatever the fk that... impressive. wow.
 
jamie_

jamie_

emotionally abused from loving a narcissist
May 21, 2022
188
i reckon i haven't shaved for about six months either and then i remember that being the first time in six months too. i haven't showered since the last time there was a heatwave in the UK (i can't remember when like august maybe). i don't maintain myself because it reminds me too much of living and doing so is painful.
 
makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2022
1,862
That's so true: Drinking actually made me feel free, and more outgoing. But the downsides of it all are terrible. The dreadful hangovers, and delerium tremens after you've been on a long bender. I was hallucinating just before I went into alcohol rehab and this 7 foot chicken crawled out from under my bed. It was wearing a cowboy hat and leather underpants. It gave me a really evil look, then pulled down its pants. It had a big horrible chicken cock, it said in a horrible chicken voice that it was going to fuck me up. I ran out of the house because it started chasing me. I have been sober ever since.
I'll keep my THC gummies, thank you very much!😎
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,309
Hope you're able to make a turnaround man. Sometimes even a small achievement in a seemingly insignificant area of your life can kickstart things for the better. In the meantime you sound like an excellent candidate for the role of Gandalf the Grey in a hypothetical LOTR reboot. Fingers crossed for you.