I will go with you
- May 19, 2022
Hello guys. How to earn money if you are useless and every little thing requires enormous efforts? My current job is pretty straightforward but I need to do it 12 h a day. All along I think about ctb, but I can bear it. The key part is that it changes my mind. By nature I'm very soft man. I'm not cursing and there is no place for hate inside me. This is the crucial part of my life. This is the only thing that prevents me hating myself. I'm very kind and peaceful. But this job makes me tougher. I can't stand it. I want to cry. Also I'm exhausted. I have no energy even if I sleep 12 h and do nothing all day, but now I'm literally drained. I ve found good job that I can try, but I need to quit university. I don't give a shit about money, but all my childhood I was really into math and programming. It's tough to just quit my dreams because of depression. It killed all my desires. Now I only able to solve straightforward tasks and nothing more. I just need to exist. I want to achieve peace in this world, but how? Live is killing all my humanity. How are you guys coping? How do you earn money? Can you give me advice? Can you talk to me? I'm so scared.