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What lies ahead
Jun 28, 2018
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Basically I'm moving to a foreign country to do a call center job. I will do night shifts and weekends for minimum wage (night shifts will pay 20% more). It's a full time job. I'll be able to afford a room in a shared apartment and to eat supermarket food and that's it. I was wondering how long am I going to be able to mentally handle this job before I CTB? Bonus is that I'll have private health insurance so I'll be able to spend my spare time in private hospitals and clinics (I'm a hypochondriac), and night shifts will surely mess up with my health in a long run.

I'm planning to do alcohol + xanax in order to relax.